[Verse 1] I always knew that I was second Even when you said I wasn’t You could tell me that you loved me I would find a reason not to trust it And I know that wasn’t fair You were trying, I was scared I kept waiting for the moment You’d realize why I’m still here [Pre-Chorus] Maybe I made it happen Maybe that’s the worst part I was so scared you’d break me I did it for you from the start [Chorus] I’m an addict, I’m a failure There’s nothing else that I could tell her I love you, but I hate me I’m not someone that’s worth remembering It’s better for both of us If you just kept moving ‘Cause I know when the time comes I’m not the one you’re choosing [Verse 2] And I loved you, I still mean that That’s what makes it hard to leave it You were everything I wanted I just never could believe it I compared myself to everyone I knew that you could have And every time you looked at me I wondered why you hadn’t left I know I pushed you further Every time you got too close I wanted you to prove me wrong Then gave you reasons you should go [Pre-Chorus] So maybe I can’t blame you For doing what I knew you’d do I spent so long feeling second I made myself second to you [Chorus] I’m an addict, I’m a failure There’s nothing else that I could tell her I love you, but I hate me I’m not someone that’s worth remembering It’s better for both of us If you just kept moving ‘Cause I know when the time comes I’m not the one you’re choosing [Bridge — stripped down] I don’t think you ever knew How much I wanted to be enough for you I don’t think I knew either How to let somebody love me And maybe you would’ve stayed Maybe I would’ve ruined it anyway I don’t know. I just know I loved you And somehow That wasn’t enough to make me love myself [Final Chorus] I’m an addict, I’m a failure There’s nothing else that I could tell her I love you, but I hate me I’m not someone that’s worth remembering It’s better for both of us If you just kept moving ‘Cause I know when the time comes I’m not the one you’re choosing [Outro] I always knew I’d be the backup I just hoped that I’d be wrong And maybe that’s my fault Maybe I spent so long Waiting for you to leave I forgot how to make you stay.
