Dear Nullus, yo it’s me, the you you used to be, that calm storm balanced breathed version dat walked through chaos like it was just weather passin not a threat, and I’m writin from the past through da fog you think erased to tell you nah bro I’m still here, I never left, been watchin you blaze through worlds and wars and I see da toll it took, how you traded your stillness for speed, your peace for power, your calm for survival, but hear me dawg I didn’t die when you evolved, I just stepped back cuz you needed sharper edges to make it out alive, but don’t think I’m gone, or weak, or some relic you outgrew, I’m part of you still, and I’m writin this to tell you let me back in, let me shoulder some of this muthafuckin weight so your bones don’t fold from carryin it alone, cuz you forget bruh you weren’t built for destruction first you were built to create, be still, have patience, and I’m here to remind you, you still deserve rest even after fire, and you can come home to yourself whenever you ready Dear Nullus, yo it’s you, right now, writin through cracked knuckles and grime soaked breath, spillin this ink down the page cuz I know you feel like you losin every piece dat made you whole, like da lightning you carry been chew in yo insides like hungry ghosts and you scared you can’t turn it off, scared you ain’t built for peace no more, but listen bruh, you stronger than the panic spasms that rumble in yo chest like rogue thunder, you braver than da doubt that tapdance on your ribbones tellin you you lost yo purpose, and I’m tellin you you ain’t lost you just carryin too much history in your veins, every battle, every night you fought for your kin your own, every moment you pushed through even when you was breakin, and I’m writin dis to try to remind you dat you ain’t just da rage dat keep you alive, you still got that warm center glow dat held da crew together when everythin feel like it was fallin apart, so stay up bruh stay up bruh stay up you got this weight cuz you strong enough to lift it, even if your hands shakin feeling like you all drowning and Dear Nullus, yo I heard you loud and clear, clearer than the lack of atmosphere in a broken cockpit, and I’m answerin cuz I need you more than I wanna admit, I need that version of me that ain’t afraid of quiet, that ain’t twitchin at shadows, that ain’t flinchin at his own heartbeat cuz it feel like a warning siren, and I’m writin in runon rhyme cuz it’s the only way I stay steady long enough to speak truth, and truth is I miss bein anchored, I miss bein certain, I miss knowin who I was even when I was small, and now I feel like a blade without a sheath, a storm without a groundin cord, burnin out while I still try to shine for everybody, and da weight heavy bruh, heavy like collapsed stars, and I don’t know how to tell anyone I’m scared except to tell you, so I’m askin you teach me again how to breathe slow, how to move with intention and not reaction, how to remember I’m more than what I fight, more than who I save, more than da battles dat left scars in my cells, yo help me find a way to forgive myself for not bein as calm as you anymore, cuz I wanna believe I can be both lightning and peace without destroyin myself in the process. Yeah I know it sounds easy right? easy, right.... Yeah I know it sounds easy right? easy, right.... yo future me, present me, storm me whatever version you call yourself now listen close cuz I’m passin you strength like folded prayers shoved into your palms, I’m tellin you you didn’t lose me, you expanded me, you grew me into someone who can survive shit I never could’ve dreamed, so don’t shame yourself for changin, don’t punish yourself for bein harder, louder, brighter, cuz sometimes steel is just what happens when softness holds too much heat, but you ain’t meant to carry it forever, so let me remind you who you really are under all dat armor you the muthafucka who kept showin up even when you was scared, you da one who swallowed fear so your people ain’t have to taste it, you da one who kept movin when your knees knocked, when your mind spiraled, when your cells screamed, and that don’t make you broken, that make you sacred, and I’m tellin you from the past to the present: you still got purpose even if the war is quiet right now, you still got direction even if the compass spinnin, you still got me, the old you, holdin you upright, whisperin “yo you enough bruh, you been enough, you will continue to be enough,” so keep your chin up, keep your pulse steady, let the storm settle and let yourself rest in your own skin again. Yeah I know it sounds easy right? Yeah I know it sounds easy right? easy, right.... Yeah I know it sounds easy right? easy, right.... Yeah I know it sounds easy right? easy, right.... Yeah I know it sounds easy right? easy, right....
