Every F***ing Time [Art4T]

[Intro] You ever get sick of hearing those words... "Maybe next time." ... Fuck your next time. [Verse 1] I watched another door slam shut Didn't even get to touch the fucking handle Everybody says "Keep pushing." Keep pushing what? This dead fucking body? I swear I can smell another chance Then somebody else already owns it Again. Again. Again. I'm so fucking tired. [Burst 1] MOOOOORE!! Gimme one more fucking "almost"!! One more "you were so close"!! One more pat on the back— GO TO HEEEEEEELL!! [Chorus A] I MISS EVERY FUCKING TIME!! Every goddamn train leaves while I'm still tying my shoes Every break belongs to somebody else Every fucking time Every fucking time MEEEEEEE... I miss every fucking time. [Post-Chorus] ("Keep trying!") Fuck you. ("Stay positive!") Fuck you. ("Everything happens for a reason!") FUUUUUUUCK YOOOOOU!! [Verse 2] I stopped checking my phone. Nothing good ever lands there anyway. Bills. Spam. Wrong fucking numbers. My friends say "Your luck will change." Will it? When? Tuesday? Next year? After I'm dead? Funny how life keeps asking for patience Like patience ever paid rent. [Breakdown] I'm not asking to win. I'm asking... Can I lose ONE LESS TIME? ... No? Figures. [False Chorus] I miss... (No.) I miss... (NO!) I MISS... Forget it. I miss... (No.) I miss... (NO!) I MISS... Forget it. [Ramp] You know what pisses me off? Not losing. Getting close enough that I can fucking taste it. Every. Single. Time. [Scream Wall] WHYYYYYYYYY?! WHY NOT MEEEEEEEE?! WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG?! DON'T GIVE ME ADVICE!! DON'T GIVE ME HOPE!! DON'T GIVE ME SHIT!! JUST SAY "LIFE DOESN'T GIVE A FUCK." AT LEAST THAT'S HONEST!! [Chorus B] I MISS EVERY FUCKING TIME!! Every goddamn chance Every stupid dream Every finish line Moves when I get near I MISS EVERY FUCKING TIME!! AND I'M SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SIIIIIIIIICK [Interlude] One heartbeat. One breath. "...next time..." HAHAHAHAHAHA... No. [Final Section] Maybe tomorrow. Maybe never. I don't even fucking care anymore. No... That's bullshit. I DO care. That's why it hurts. That's why I'm still here still yelling still breaking my fucking throat at a world that doesn't even turn its head. I MISS... I MISS... EVERY... FUCKING... TIME. [Final Chorus] I MISS EVERY FUCKING TIME!! Every door shuts Right before my hand Every light goes out The second that I stand I MISS EVERY FUCKING TIME!! HOW MANY MORE "ALMOSTS" DO I HAVE TO SURVIVE?! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO WATCH SOMEONE ELSE LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE?! I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICK OF HEARING "MAYBE NEXT TIIIIIIIME!!" THERE IS NO NEXT TIME!! THERE'S JUST THIS. THIS. THIS. I MISS... EVERY... FUCKING... TIME!!