[Verse 1] Alarm's been screaming for an hour straight I’m scrolling lies while the dishes wait To‑do list taped above my bed Every task a weight inside my head I know I should get up, I know the plan Brush my teeth, wash a plate, be a ‘normal’ human But my body’s made of wet cement Every second feels like energy spent [Chorus] It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I can’t press play My brain shouts “MOVE!” but my hands disobey I see every step laid out in my mind But I’m stuck on pause, falling further behind Call it lazy, call it tantrum, call me broken if you want to This is my executive dysfunction, not an excuse I’m talking through [Verse 2] Unread emails lined up like a firing squad Each notification feels like a god Judging every minute that I’m still in place While the shame burns hot and crawls up my face Friends think I’m ghosting when I just can’t type Simple “how are you?” becomes a mountain of hype I rehearse replies until the moment’s gone Another quiet failure I’ll brood on [Chorus] It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I can’t press play My brain shouts “MOVE!” but my hands disobey I see every step laid out in my mind But I’m stuck on pause, falling further behind Call it lazy, call it tantrum, call me broken if you want to This is my executive dysfunction, not an alibi I spin for you [Verse 3] I’ve colour‑coded calendars and apps on my phone Timers and trackers so I’m never alone I’ve read every thread on how to start “Just do the thing” like that’s some art I know all the hacks, I could write the guide But the cursor blinks while I sit and hide Knowing isn’t power when your gears won’t turn Just a front‑row seat while you crash and burn [Bridge - Heavy aggressive] “Just try harder, set alarms, make a list” Do you think all of this effort doesn’t exist?! “Stop procrastinating, you’re choosing this state” You don’t see the battle it takes to be late Every “simple” task is a boss‑fight round Every tiny start is a victory found I’m not your punchline, I’m not your joke I’m a locked‑up engine drowning in smoke [Chorus] It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I can’t press play My brain shouts “MOVE!” but my hands disobey I see every step laid out in my mind But I’m stuck on pause, falling further behind Call it lazy, call it tantrum, call me broken if you want to This is my executive dysfunction, screaming back “I’m trying too” [Verse 4] So if I washed one cup, that’s a fucking win If I answered one text, that’s me checking in If I got out of bed and I stood on the floor That’s a quiet revolution you’ll never score You won’t see the war but you’ll see the mess Judge the surface, never feel the stress But every small action that I complete Is a drum in this chaos keeping beat [Final Chorus] It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I can’t press play My brain shouts “MOVE!” but my hands disobey I see every step laid out in my mind But I’m clawing through the glue just to not fall behind Call it lazy, call it tantrum, call me broken if you want to This is my executive dysfunction, every breath is pushing through [Outro] I’m not hopeless, I’m not fine I’m a stalled car stuck in line But I care, I care, I swear it’s true This is proof that I’m still trying too [END]
