💖 YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@44VelvetRain 💖 TIKTOK: https://www.tiktok.com/@44velvetrain 💖 SPOTIFY: https://sptfy.com/Qjse Polish version: https://suno.com/song/66d17f24-531c-4d46-8cad-4e304bb41dff [Verse 1] "Don't think of me as that Sad Lady Rapper" Yeah, I said that years ago in "Exhibitionist" Things have changed since then Life's gone to shit again I get flashes of sunlight But most days I'm fucking crying My brain's an old hustler Selling me the same old lies Saying nobody would miss me Nobody would even cry Depression's back again Though I'm trying to dodge the blow She lands every single punch And I don't know how to cope I never really wanted to die And that's what scares me the most 'Cause when that thought kicks in I don't feel like myself no more Something tells me to jump And I'm terrified I just might That's the moment I stop knowing What's me and what's inside my mind [Pre-Chorus] I see flashes, I see sparks I have moments filled with color Then somebody pulls the plug And I'm stranded in the dark [Chorus 1] Sad Lady Rapper Writing another sad song She was meant to be a supernova Now she's just a wreckage drifting on Sad Lady Rapper Can't fall asleep at night 'Cause her mind keeps manufacturing Nothing but disaster every time [Verse 2] One day I'm the queen of drama Next day queen of false belief Planning how to take the whole world Can't even wash a coffee cup for me My mind's a debt collector Never lets me keep what's mine Shows up for every single smile Takes it back with added interest every time The worst moments are the good ones When everything feels alright 'Cause somewhere in the distance I can hear that train arriving And I'm lying on those tracks again Like I did fifteen years ago Like peace was always just a scam And misery was always home Nobody thinks about me As cruelly as I think myself Nobody spends whole nights replaying Every failure, every hell I'm the judge and I'm the executioner The witness and accused Every day the same damn trial Every day the same abuse [Chorus 2] Sad Lady Rapper Never trusts her better days 'Cause the second life feels good She's waiting for the next wave Sad Lady Rapper Maybe someday she'll be fine But tonight above her head Those black clouds still own the sky [Outro] Sad Lady Rapper Still fighting with her mind Looking for a way out That she never seems to find Sad Lady Rapper Trying hard to hold on tight Holding onto tiny sparks While the darkness kills the light
