Remix me - Quiet Garden

Co-producer: Peachoman🍑 | Special thanks: WryCrossfader [[Disclaimer]] 今回は「関係性」と「存在」が主なテーマです。他のメイン曲と同じく、メタファーと余白をたっぷり入れました。それから、この曲は私の実話に基づいておりません。あなたが感じる「何か」が、すべて正解です 制作過程の詳細が気になる方はプロダクションノートをご覧ください。ただ、曲をより純粋にあなた自身のものとして感じたいなら、読まない方がいいかもしれません。よろしくお願いします This song is about “relationship” and “existence.” Like my other tracks, it’s filled with metaphors and plenty of open space. Also, this is not based on my personal story. Whatever you feel is yours. If you’re curious about the production process, feel free to read the production notes. But if you want the song to become fully yours, it might be better not to. Thank you for listening. =============================== I am the hand that held the spoon. (私はスプーンを握っていた手) The sweat I traded for your clean slate. (あなたのまっさらな始まりのために 流した汗) You wiped the blood but tossed the band●ge. (あなたは、傷を拭っては 癒しの跡を投げ捨てた) I am the noise in your quiet garden. (私はあなたの静かな庭に響く ノイズ) A face you never asked for. (あなたが求めなかった “存在”) A ghost hauling your laundry. (あなたの洗濯物を運ぶ 幽霊) The closer I stand, the more I disappear. (近づけば近づくほど 私は薄れていく) A face you never asked for… The closer I stand… the more I disappear… (あなたが求めなかった“誰か”… 近づけば近づくほど… 私は薄れていく…) You kept the dried pressed flower. (あなたは押し花は大切に残したが) But you burned the root that kept it alive. (それを生かしていた 根は焼き払った) The nights I folded your darkness, lifted the weight you never carried, wept into sheets you never saw wet— (あなたの闇を折りたたんだ夜 あなたが負わなかった重さを支え あなたが見なかった濡れたシーツに泣いた——) To you, it’s just a stain on the white wall. (あなたにとって それは、ただ白い壁の染み) I was the hand that never got a "Thank you". (「ありがとう」の一言ももらえなかった手) Now I’m the shadow you double-lock the door against. (今 私はあなたが二重に鍵をかける 影) I am the noise in your quiet garden. (私はあなたの静かな庭に響く ノイズ) A face you never asked for. (あなたが求めなかった “存在”) A ghost hauling your laundry. (あなたの洗濯物を運ぶ 幽霊) The closer I stand, the more you look away. (近づけば近づくほど あなたは視線を逸らす) A face you never asked for… The closer I stand… the more you look away… (あなたが求めなかった“誰か”… 近づけば近づくほど… あなたは視線を逸らす…) You’ve perfected the art of the void. (あなたは完璧に身につけた 虚空の技) I... Am... Here. (私は…ここに…いる) But I am not... In your “Here.” (でも、私は… あなたの「ここ」には… いない) I am the noise In your Quiet Garden (私は… あなたの静かな庭の… ノイズなの) <Korean> 나는 스푼을 쥐고 있던 손 네 깨끗한 새 출발을 위해 내가 흘린 땀 너는 피를 닦고서는 치유의 흔적을 그냥 던져 버렸지 네 고요한 정원 속 나는 노이즈일 뿐 네가 바라지 않았던 존재 네 빨래를 짊어지고 다니는 유령 네게 가까이 다가설수록 나는 더 희미해져 가 네가 바라지 않았던 존재… 가까이 다가설수록… 나는 사라져 가… 너는 눌러 말린 꽃은 소중히 간직했지만 그걸 살린 뿌리는 태워 버렸어 네 어둠을 접어 정리하던 밤들 네가 지지 않았던 무게를 떠받치던 밤들 네가 보지 못한 젖은 시트에 울던 밤들—— 너에게 그것은 그저 하얀 벽에 생긴 얼룩일 뿐 “고마워” 한마디조차 듣지 못한 존재 이제 나는 네가 이중으로 잠가버리는 그림자 네 고요한 정원 속 나는 노이즈일 뿐 네가 바라지 않았던 존재 네 빨래를 짊어지고 다니는 유령 네게 가까이 다가설수록 너는 시선을 피했지 네가 바라지 않았던 존재… 가까이 다가설수록… 너는 시선을 돌려… 너는 공허의 기술을 완벽하게 익혔어 나는… 여기… 있어 하지만 나는… 너의 “여기”에는… 없어 나는 네 조용한 정원 속 노이즈일 뿐 ================================ [[Production Notes]] Thank you for listening to this song. The initial version of this track was quite different from the final one. As mentioned in the disclaimer, the core themes are “relationship” and “existence,” and this song serves as the starting point for the “Still Being” series. I plan to continue this series and others irregularly in the future Originally, I began writing with the intention of making it part of the “Not to be Lost” series (Tabula Яasa ＞ busy. being. Real. ＞ Triptych+1+1). At that time, everything was unclear, and I was building the lyrics based on a certain personal experience of mine I struggled to get used to Suno v5.5, and couldn’t quite achieve the sound I wanted. More than that, I started to feel uncomfortable with the core idea itself. So I borrowed some valuable time from Peachoman and WryCrossfader, with whom I often discuss music production, and received various pieces of advice. I’m truly grateful to both of them In particular, Peachoman suggested “What if you changed the theme?” and gave input not only on sound design but also on the content, based on his own experiences. He contributed greatly to making the theme clearer and reaching this final version, so I want to express my gratitude by treating this as a co-production (I’ve also credited Peachoman as co-producer on the release) Lately, the very act of “publishing” has started to feel very scary to me, and I haven’t been able to release many songs. Of course, I’ve been adding practice pieces, personal experiments, and songs for communication to the “Another Garden” and “Unlisted” playlists (and quite a lot of them!)… but when it comes to main releases, it becomes frightening. I still don’t fully understand why Anyway, I tried to avoid touching on the content of the lyrics as much as possible so as not to interfere with your listening experience. There are all kinds of relationships in the world, and some of you may have no connection at all to the kind of relationship depicted in this song. Still, if it can convey that this kind of dynamic might exist somewhere, there would be no greater joy for me as the creator Thank you again, and I look forward to your continued support ------------------------------------------------- 曲をご鑑賞いただきありがとうございます。この曲の初期バージョンは今とかなり異なります。Disclaimerでも申しましたが、「関係性」と「存在」が根幹のテーマであり、「Still Being」連作のスタートラインとなる曲でございます。以降、不定期にこちらと別の連作を続けていきたいと思っています 本来は「Not to be Lost」連作（Tabula Яasa ＞ busy. being. Real. ＞ Triptych+1+1）の一部として考えていたテーマとして曲作りを始めたのですが、何もかもはっきりしていない状態で、わたし個人のとある経験を基に歌詞を組んでいました Suno v5.5に馴染めず、出したかったサウンドが上手く出せてなかったこともそうですが、そもそも素材そのものに違和感を感じてしまいました。それで、普段から曲作りの話をたくさん交わすPeachomanさんとWryCrossfaderさんの貴重なお時間を借りて、いろんなアドバイスを受けました。お二方にはとても感謝しております 特に、Peachomanさんは「テーマを変えてみては」と、サウンドデザインだけではなく、ご本人の経験をベースに内容に関しても呈してくれました。テーマをより明確にし、最終バージョンに辿り着くまで大変貢献してくれたので、この曲におかれては共同プロデュースという形で感謝の気持ちを伝えたいと思います（配信の方にも共同プロデューサーとしてPeachoman名義を入れさせてもらいました） 最近のわたしは「パブリッシュする」という行為そのものがとても怖く感じるようになり、なかなか曲を出せていません。もちろん、習作や個人研究、コミュニケーションのための曲は「Another Garden」や「Unlisted」プレイリストに追加させてもらっています（しかもたくさん！）…が、やはりメイン曲となると、怖くなります。理由は、まだ分かりません とにかく、ご鑑賞を邪魔しないよう、歌詞の内容に関しては極力触れないようにしました。世の中には当たり前ながらいろんな関係性があり、この曲で表現された関係性とは全く無縁な方々もおられるかもしれません。ただ、このような形もどこかには存在するかもしれない、ということが伝わったら、作者としてはこれ以上の喜びはございません それでは、引き続きよろしくお願いいたします