You disappear when it starts to hurt You call that instinct I call it habit You wait it out like a safe bet Then step in once the damage quits screaming You weren’t there when it counted You weren’t there when it asked Now you show up smiling Like history doesn’t snap back You arrive late Demand the prize Talk like survival was shared look at you now Standing there demanding look at you now Wanting what survived the night look at you now Claiming you were close somehow You missed the war So look at you now You want the credit without the cost You want the crown without the cut You say my name like it’s an open door Like you didn’t lock it from the outside You ask for everything Like time forgot Where you decided Not to stay You talk brave After the fact That’s not strength That’s delusion look at you now Standing there demanding look at you now Wanting what survived the night look at you now Claiming you were close somehow You missed the war So look at you now I learned to live without the sound of you I learned to stand without your weight Don’t confuse distance with mercy Don’t confuse silence with space look at you now Rewriting where you stood look at you now Taking more than you should look at you now Reaching for what you disowned You weren’t there You weren't there Now you want control Where were you before Where the fuck were you before look at me now!!
