Took it a day at a time Cause Even when i Tried to fight for my life Felt the decay in my mind Said it won't take me alive And I guess I survived But to be alive And to be unscathed Aren't one in the same And I know in a way That Im not The same Cause I spent most of my days Playing your games And despite what they say You're not a saint At least you weren't And I guess that people change But you've burned me before So When I tried to turn the page I shouldn't have been surprised But You Hurt me some more So I decided to keep my space And vowed to never enter yours And I cant believe what I'm about to say But I can't hold onto this no more I forgive you. Make no mistake My Forgiveness Is in no way forgetfulness It's simply to get over this Feeling of Hopelessness I know I Don't owe you shit Just need to get this over with. I Used to hate you I mean really hate you But now I don't need to Cause now I don't know you I mean when I say When you die I won't go to your funeral Cause at the end of the day You were dead to me years ago They told me this feeling would fade But that would take a miracle Cause no matter what they say It's weird to go to a stranger's funeral I tried once more to make things right Three years after I cut you from my life Things were fine initially We co-existed cordially Took group pictures normally And acted like things formally Never happened But then it happened You snapped and Made a scene Made it seem like You're the victim Tried to trick them But the difference Is they won't listen Anymore Cause they've witness This before And dismissed it Furthermore I was vindicated After years of being isolated I decided I don't need to Hide myself from you After all They insisted that you're different And yes I had suspicions But i wouldn't close the distance Cause after every instance Of doing business with you I knew You can't change And you proved it That day But don't worry I forgive you. I forgive you for the bruises I Forgive you for the scars I Forgive you for the choices That left me with no heart But I can't forget the bruises I Can't forget the scars I Can't forget the choices That left us where we are. Cause Forgiveness Doesn't fix it Even distance Doesn't help Cause i live with Your decisions Like a anchor To my belt. My relationships are guarded Cause I trusted you so easy But you treated me like garbage So I tossed myself completely Into things ill regret But I bet that you get A sick sense of comfort Knowing you still have a hold On the ones That you mothered And the ones you that you hold But I wont still be smothered By the one that betrayed And I won't still be tortured Instead I'll walk away Cause you should have shown me how to love like no other But Instead you taught me how to hate So I guess to you My dearest mother There's one thing left to say I forgive you. I forgive you. I forgive you.
