Sometimes I leave without moving Just let the room carry on I hear every word that you're saying But somewhere inside, I am gone I learned how to make myself smaller A shadow beneath the noise Nobody knows when I've left them I got so good at losing my voice And I don't know when it started Or why it feels safer there To disappear before I'm noticed To vanish before someone cares This is where I go when I disappear Somewhere I don't have to be seen I close every door, I turn out the light And tell myself I'll be alright But the further I run, the less I know How to find the road back home I disappear to feel safe from the world Then wonder why I feel so alone I've gotten good at changing the subject Good at saying, "I'm fine" Good at carrying everything quietly Like none of it ever was mine And sometimes I wish you could see me Without asking me to explain Because I don't always have the words For the things I can't say And I don't know when it started This instinct to disappear To build a place nobody enters And call it safer than being here This is where I go when I disappear Somewhere I don't have to be seen I close every door, I turn out the light And tell myself I'll be alright But the further I run, the less I know How to find the road back home I disappear to feel safe from the world Then wonder why I feel so alone Maybe I don't have to vanish Every time the world gets too loud Maybe I can stay here hurting Without becoming a ghost Maybe someone could sit beside me And not ask me to be okay Maybe I don't have to know the words To let somebody stay This is where I go when I disappear But maybe you could meet me here I won't open every door tonight I might only leave one light And if I lose my way again Maybe I don't need to run this far I disappear to feel safe from the world But maybe I don't have to Sometimes I leave without moving But tonight I'm still here
