The Reason I Lie I say I’m just tired when I can barely stand Say my back is hurting, leave out what I can’t understand I tell ’em I slept wrong, blame it on the rain ’Cause it’s easier than explaining every kind of pain I smile at the grocery store, lean hard on that cart Try to hide the shaking in my hands and in my heart They ask me how I’m doing, and I give ’em that old line “Man, I’m doing good,” even when I’m running out of time That’s the reason I lie When I say I’m alright When I say I’m just worn out And I’ll be better by tonight I don’t want to be a burden I don’t want to see that look in their eyes So I carry all this hurting That’s the reason I lie I cancel plans at the last minute, say something came up Truth is, getting dressed feels like climbing straight uphill There are days I miss the man I used to be The one who never had to wonder what his body’d let him be And I hate the way the silence gets so loud When the people that I love are standing there, and I shut ’em out But how do you explain a storm that they cannot see When it’s tearing through your bones and stealing all parts of me? That’s the reason I lie When I say I’m alright When I say I’m just worn out And I’ll be better by tonight I don’t want to be a burden I don’t want to see that look in their eyes So I carry all this hurting That’s the reason I lie It ain’t because I don’t trust you It ain’t because I don’t care I just don’t know how to hand you All the weight I’m trying to bear And maybe one day I’ll tell you How close I come undone But tonight I’ll say “I’m fine” And pray tomorrow comes That’s the reason I lie When I say I’m alright When I laugh a little louder Just to make it through the night I don’t want to be a burden But I’m learning I don’t have to hide Maybe love can hold the hurting Maybe I don’t have to lie Yeah, I’m trying not to lie… But some days, it’s how I survive.
