Hold Your Breath

[Verse 1] How many times can a man hit the ground Before staying down starts making sense? I keep getting handed another damn mountain Like I haven't been climbing since I was a kid They tell me the weight means I'm strong enough Like that's supposed to make it weigh any less So what am I trying to prove anymore? Who am I trying to impress? [Pre-Chorus] I gave everything Then gave what was left Now there's nothing in my hands But the shape of what I had [Chorus] Don't hold your breath for me I couldn't be the man You thought I'd be I'm coming apart Under everything I swore I'd carry Don't wait up Don't lose sleep Trying to find What's left of me I'll hold my breath Till my soul turns black and blue Just don't hold yours For me [Verse 2] I used to think there'd be a reason Somewhere underneath all this That every loss would mean something If I survived enough of it But I've buried names I've packed up rooms I've watched forever change its mind And every time I put myself back together Life comes looking for another piece to take I'm tired of being called resilient By people who never had to watch me break [Pre-Chorus] If this is making me stronger Why do I feel so weak? If there's a lesson in losing everything I've learned enough Please [Chorus] Don't hold your breath for me I couldn't be the man You thought I'd be I'm coming apart Under everything I swore I'd carry Don't wait up Don't lose sleep Trying to find What's left of me I'll hold my breath Till my soul turns black and blue Just don't hold yours For me [Bridge] I promised I could take it I promised I wouldn't break I didn't know How much of me That promise was gonna take Look at me I'm still fucking standing But for what? What am I proving? Who wins If I survive every fucking thing And don't recognize myself when it's over? [Breakdown] I'm done. You hear me? I'M FUCKING DONE! [Heavy Breakdown] I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I'M TIRED OF BLEEDING JUST TO SAY I ENDURED! I'M TIRED OF SCREAMING AT A GOD THAT WON'T ANSWER! HOW MANY BATTLES DO I HAVE TO SURVIVE BEFORE I'M ALLOWED TO PUT THE ARMOR DOWN?! [Instrumental Collapse] [Bridge] I don't want another mountain I don't need another test I don't need to be remembered For how much I could withstand Maybe I just needed someone To say I didn't have to win Maybe putting down the armor Doesn't mean I'm giving in [Final Chorus] So don't hold your breath for me I couldn't be the man You thought I'd be I tried so hard To hold the world It took the best of me And if I look A little different When I finally make it through It's because some things Don't leave you whole They leave you new I'll hold my breath Till my soul turns black and blue Till all this pressure Turns everything I was to ash But if there's anything Still breathing underneath Maybe that's enough For me [Outro] I lost everything Then almost lost my name Spent so long Trying not to break I forgot I was allowed to bend So don't hold your breath I'll find mine again…