[Verse 1] I trim my edges down Before I walk in I choose the safer smile I learn the room I'm in I laugh when I should laugh I nod when I should nod I make myself a shape That fits the shape you want [Pre-Chorus] And every little "sure" Takes something from my chest Every little "it's fine" Leaves me less and less I keep the door unlocked For everybody else But I forget the key To myself [Chorus] I got small to stay close Small to stay close And now I'm hard to find Inside my own home I got small to stay close Small to stay close I lost my name in the noise Of being what they want [Verse 2] I edit every word Like I'm a page to fix I cut the honest parts And call that being fit I read the room for crumbs I trade my truth for less I wear the version you can love And starve the rest I know the kind of eyes That soften when I bend So I bend again And again And again [Pre-Chorus] But every borrowed shape Starts to feel like a chain Every time I play the part I drift a little way From the voice that used to feel Like it was mine alone From the quiet little pulse That says come home [Chorus] I got small to stay close Small to stay close And now I'm hard to find Inside my own home I got small to stay close Small to stay close I lost my name in the noise Of being what they want [Bridge] What if I don't perform? What if I don't fold? What if love can hold me When I'm unpolished, whole? I don't want a borrowed face Or a careful half-life I want the one I buried To stand up and rise [Final Chorus] I got small to stay close Small to stay close But I can hear my name Beneath the old control I got small to stay close Small to stay close Now I choose the long way back To being whole I got small to stay close Small to stay close And I will not disappear To be adored
