Dubitavi, Domine (I Doubted, Lord)

[Intro – Distant thunder, mournful lute, lone monk chant] Domine, non sum dignus… Ut intres sub tectum meum (Matthew 8:8 – adapted) [Verse 1 – Slow, brooding doom riff, clean melancholic vocals] I stood in the upper room with the nail-prints so near, Yet my hand reached out shaking, my heart full of fear. “Unless I see the scars, unless I feel the wound, I will not believe,” said the twin who was doomed. (John 20:25) [Verse 2 – Heavier, anguished] Jonah ran from Nineveh, slept in the storm’s embrace, Swallowed by the great fish, hiding from grace. Three days in the belly, three days in the grave, A prophet who doubted the mercy that saves. (Jonah 1-3) [Pre-Chorus – Choir whispers] Quare dubitasti, modicae fidei? (Matthew 14:31 – “Why did you doubt, O you of little faith?”) [Chorus – Soaring, broken] Dubitavi, Domine… I questioned Your word in the night. Dubitavi, Domine… My courage collapsed in the fight. Peter sank in the waves, Thomas demanded a sign, Yet You reached through my darkness and called me still “Mine.” [Verse 3 – Haunting recorder + low growl] Gideon asked for the fleece to be wet, then dry, Sarah laughed in the tent when the promise passed by. Even John from the dungeon sent word, “Are You He?” Every saint has a moment of trembling and flee. [Bridge – Band almost silent, choir only] Miserere nobis… Quia peccavimus tibi Yet the same Lord who calmed the sea, Reached into the tomb and said, “Peace be with you… My Lord and my God.” (John 20:28) [Final Chorus – Guitars return, slow and crushing, then lift] Dubitavi, Domine… But mercy was stronger than shame! Dubitavi, Domine… You spoke and I worshipped Your name! Thomas touched the wounds, Jonah preached to the lost, Peter walked restored on the waves of the cross. Redemptor meus vivit! You live, and You call me by grace, Even doubters are welcomed Into Your wounded embrace! [Outro – Gregorian chant over fading clean guitar] Credidi, etiam cum locutus sum: Ego humiliatus sum nimis (Psalm 116:10 – “I believed, even when I said: I am greatly afflicted”) Amen… Amen… Domine, credo—adiuva incredulitatem meam (Mark 9:24)