Entry

[Egyptian Arabic haunting intro instrumental] [spoken work breathy confusion] I am born? I am matter Do I matter? am I an insect? or an animal? my strange features are cut in half from the middle of my face what's this line [first verse] Why's the writing on this wall backwards? I know this memory only from how I couldn't read then Why's the wall see through like a glass reflection of a version of me of you in another dimension? I can't hold my head up but something is I see the sky for the first time It's that what it's called? I'm in your hammocked flesh cradle My first bassinet above the death below us I'll ignore it like you do As we walk you kick up dust from the sands My small eyes will see that again, I think you know that Do you hear the screaming too? Who should I be listening to? [second verse] There were fields that I was near I was brought forth so suddenly, filth piled in pools under a pelvic floor They bubbled on the dirt with a tent over my head I only know those words now that I'm older Before you told me I was dead I feel pressure beneath this weighted blanket suit Pin pricks of something making me move Jolts of vibration with heat As you want me to forget me [pre-chorus] Your smile crescents into a moon and I'm born from a new womb You say "the story you knew will be no more" So now we listen to you [Verse] Wait, who is we? I'm steady to my feet cause now I can't walk well from you're doing The metal table is cold and the next room that I'm told to go in Has many men Some afraid, some confused I'm too young to choose an emotion So again you say "the story you knew will be no more" So now we listen to you [chorus] Now my emotions have a name? And they want to play hide and seek But you say there's no time for games And you quiz me on my selfish needs I learn to obey, to impress you at every turn And before the test is over There's burning Burning burning In so many ways My eyes, my legs, my feet, my tender parts that never should be known so young [pre-verse] You say this is the life you chose That people already know, and that I've got no place to go as long as I am yours You say I was paid for I'm too young to know what money is You say I'll get to know it well I'm a smart kid Then suddenly I'm in a pit with blood and pigs You get so many to say you fucking little terrorist kid You'll pay for what you did [chorus] You get men with screens and drugs to say "the story you knew will be no more" Now my emotions have a name? And they want to play hide and seek But you say there's no time for games And you quiz while you make me bleed I learn to obey, to impress you at every turn And before the test is over There's burning Burning burning In so many ways When does this go away? Who even wants me if you say you don't? Why do you change your mind if you bought a child you don't want? I'm starting to catch on that you're the criminal here But I can't tell you what I know Your power is my fear [soft powerful end verse] I'm too young to know now But this emotion you named here, he's an undead soldier man And he knows your power is my fear This is where I learn to fool you I'm gonna learn from him how to fool you