I've said it before And i'll say it again I was born in the morgue Before there was life I was already dead Before I knew light I was married to death I thought I knew right But then it was flipped on my head Remembering things I tried to forget I wanna believe that they didn't exist Cannot believe that you let it persist I was a child You saw it all happen I know that I smiled But that is a normal reaction To seeing your mother But not when she's beating your brother Not when she's screaming out fucker You knew that it happened You saw when it happened You never went back when I cried for protection I tried to forget it Tried to erase Its like im reset When i look at her face Then i descend And i cannot escape I tried to depend But look at this place There's blood on the walls And tears on the curtains You noticed it all I must have deserved it I mean after all I know im not perfect But through it all You left me deserted I was the victim You were the witness I screamed out in silence But you never listened Rather than help You kept to yourself Might have forgot me But i was still rotting away I was left broken decayed I was left hoping some day Someone will notice And i will be saved But nobody came Instead i spent most of my days Laying in bed Wishing I's dead Tying a rope around my own neck Taking pills until i was sick Climbing hills until i would slip I Tried to deny it I Tried to pretend Like nothing had happened That it was all in my head But then I got older And the cycle continued Now i must suffer with Psychological issues And i laugh in the face Of the trauma I lived through Cause normal to me Would be Traumatic to you You could have saved me Any single one of you Instead you betrayed me And I hope that it haunts you Sure I survived But looking inside Of my traumatized mind There I reside No older than five Trying a find A way off the ride Creating these rhymes To cope with the crimes I saw with my eyes The cries and the places I hid Tried escape being spit on and hit These are the things i'll never forget I thought it was normal Thought it was fine If children are starving I should be grateful for life I should be thankful for mine I gotta ask though What's your excuse You heard the cries You saw the abuse What made you choose? To walk away Day after day Year after year Nothing had changed Only the number of children in here Honestly I pity you Cause if I had to carry As many sins as you Id have buried myself In the ash of my youth But thats okay Im fine I guess Im only Severely depressed And Mentally broken My Cuts are still open Bleeding for you Waiting for you Begging for you To nurse me to health To offer some help To know how i felt I know that its selfish I know that i'm weak I tell myself At least twice a week There must be a reason You kept your tongue in your cheek Even after you saw the dirt on our feet You chose not to speak You let us get beat All your remarks All of your comments Where do I start? Should I be honest? You no better than them Thats what ive learned By staying silent You let us get burned When we were defiant Then it got worse We needed a pilot To help us traverse Instead we got violence And one in a hearse I wanna forgive you In fact I forgave you The past is the past But the future is now So now is your chance To make us all proud When we reach out hands Will you save us now? I wanna forgive you In fact I forgave you Will you save us now? I wanna forgive you In fact I forgave you Will you save us now? Will you save us now?
