I don’t remember the last time it felt… different Curtains drawn but there’s no light Don’t know day from another night Phone lights up, I let it die— I don’t even ask why Same four walls, same quiet air Same heavy feeling everywhere I could leave, but I just don’t— Tell myself I won’t no Every door feels locked from inside Every thought just tells me to hide I build the cage, I hold the key— Still I don’t leave This is a room without windows I stay where nobody goes I shut myself in too deep— Now I can’t leave Every step turns into quicksand Every reach pulls back my hand I’m breaking myself in slow motion— And calling it coping I cancel plans I never made Push away before they stay If I’m alone, I can’t be seen— Safer in between Every chance I let it pass Future buried in the past I know I’m the one to blame— Still I stay the same Every door feels locked from inside Every thought just tells me to hide I build the cage, I hold the key— Still I don’t leave This is a room without windows I stay where nobody goes I shut myself in too deep— Now I can’t leave Every step turns into quicksand Every reach pulls back my hand I’m breaking myself in slow motion— And calling it coping stay inside / don’t be seen / you’ll mess it up / you’ll ruin everything I had a way out… I watched it close Not locked—just left it alone This is a room without windows I stay where nobody knows I buried the part that could leave— Somewhere in me Every thought turns into silence Every breath feels like defiance I’m losing myself in slow motion— And calling it home … If I opened the door… …I don’t think I would go
