(Verse 1 — The Body Knows First) My mind is offline The reasoning part has gone quiet Something older has taken the wheel And I am just riding the riot I know I shouldn't feel this way But knowing doesn't change the flood The logic is there, but it can't reach The part of me drowning in mud (Piano. Sparse. A single cello note.) (Pre-Chorus — The Turn) But I'm learning not to argue With a nervous system on fire I'm learning to move my body first Before I touch the wire Cold water on my face Long exhales into the night I'm not trying to win the war I'm just trying to find the light (Strings swell. Drums enter softly.) (Chorus — Warm, Building) This is guilt, not the truth This is weather, not the sky This is a wave that will pass through I am not the storm, I am the one who survives I am not what I have done I am not the race I've run I am learning to forgive I am learning how to live (Full band. Layered harmonies.) (Verse 2 — Guilt vs. Shame) There's a voice that says I did something wrong And a voice that says I am wrong One is a signal, one is a lie One is a whisper, one is a song Guilt says repair it, make it right Shame says you're broken, you're the crime I'm learning to tell the difference One step at a time (Piano builds. Bass enters.) (Pre-Chorus — Building) And I'm asking whose voice this is Is it mine or someone else's fear? I've been carrying guilt that was never mine For years and years and years But I'm giving it back now I'm setting it down I'm not the bearer of their burden I'm taking back my crown (Strings soar. Drums pound.) (Chorus — Explosive, Soaring) This is guilt, not the truth This is weather, not the sky This is a wave that will pass through I am not the storm, I am the one who survives I am not what I have done I am not the race I've run I am learning to forgive I am learning how to live (Choir: This is weather... not the sky...) (Bridge — Stripped, Intimate) [Piano and voice only. Whispered.] The first arrow is the pain The fact, the wound, the thing that's real The second arrow is the story The shame, the guilt, the way I feel I can't always stop the first Life will wound me, that's the deal But I can stop the second I can choose what I let heal (Beat returns. Strings build. Drums pound.) Forgiveness is not a moment It's a practice, day by day Seventy times seven Every time I fall away I don't have to feel it first I can say it till it's true The feeling follows the words The heart follows what I do (Full band explodes. Choir enters.) I AM NOT GUILTY! I AM GROWING! THERE'S A DIFFERENCE! I AM LEARNING! (Final Chorus — Massive, Singalong) This is guilt, not the truth This is weather, not the sky This is a wave that will pass through I am not the storm, I am the one who survives I am not what I have done I am not the race I've run I am learning to forgive I am learning how to live (Choir: I am learning how to live...) GUILT IS A SIGNAL! NOT A SENTENCE! IT SAYS SOMETHING MATTERS! NOT THAT I'M WORTHLESS! LISTEN TO THE SIGNAL! RELEASE THE SENTENCE! THE STORM WILL PASS! THE STORM WILL PASS! (Strings soar. Drums pound. Choir swells. Vocal ad-libs.) (Outro — Stripped, Spoken Word, Whispered) [Piano returns. Single voice.] You are not your worst moment... You are not your lowest day... You are not your failures... You are the one who keeps going... That is not guilt-worthy... That is holy... The storm will pass... Breathe... Then move... You are not alone in this... (Piano holds one final chord. Silence.)
