90 in the Dark Again (TJA)

Verse 1 [male, raw/strained] The room gets loud when nobody’s yelling Every thought bouncing off the walls I try to speak what’s breaking inside me But the words just crumble and fall “Don’t make it bigger than it is,” you say Like my pain is some mistake It doesn’t shrink when you call it small It only learns to scream in waves Pre-Chorus 1 [male, building tension] I tell myself breathe, but it’s useless Chest pounding, head spinning, no control When you say I’m being dramatic It just ignites the storm in my soul I’m doing ninety in the dark again Backroads blur like my thoughts collide Adrenaline’s the only thing cutting through The chaos I’ve held inside [female echo: “in the dark… / feel alive… / don’t crash…”] Heart racing, hands shaking, desperate to feel I’m doing ninety in the dark again Phone stays silent like it’s choosing sides Every mile reminds me I’m unseen “Dramatic”—just a word, but it lands like a punch Turns the air to fire in between I don’t want to vanish, I don’t want to scare I just need someone to notice I care Every mile I push through the storm Every mile I’m outrunning myself Pre-Chorus 2 [male] Hands gripping the wheel, heart out of sync I know this road, I know how it bends But tonight I’ll let it speak to me And hear the voice that warns instead Chorus 2 [male, full energy; female echo breathy] I’m doing ninety in the dark again Trying to outrun the noise in my head But there’s a voice cutting through the static now “Pull over. Stay here instead.” [female echo: “pull over… / stay here… / don’t go…”] Lines blur, engine roars, I almost lose control But I’m doing ninety in the dark again… And I stop stop [Screamed Break: male fry scream; low growl underneath] I DON’T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY! I DON’T WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY! BUT I DON’T WANT TO FAKE THAT I’M OKAY! I’M NOT GOING TO DISAPPEAR— I PULL IT OVER! Yeah, I know I pushed too far Yeah, I know I almost crashed But I called out for help tonight I was doing ninety in the dark tonight Lines blurred, heart pounding, nearly lost control But I pulled over, I reached for help Kept my hands and body whole I’m still scared, still overwhelmed, still me But I stayed, and I’m breathing [female echo: “stay… / still here… / still alive…”] Outro [male spoken/half-sung; female whisper] Engine cooling, night heavy but quiet I didn’t vanish tonight I’m still here, and that matters [female whisper: “still here… / still breathing…”]