I find it hard explaining it to God how much I miss you If I could turn the clock back in time I would sit with you Listen to your words more carefully I close my eyes so I can see the lifetime that you shared with me I don’t even think I got the words still I smile but my heart heavy as an anvil This my new reality so imma make you proud of me Beginning where the end starts my love sent Heavy Hearts Sometime it hits me that your presence is a distant past No tears left just a silence I deal with that I look around y’all a crowd I can’t be specific We lost this one after that one I can’t catch my rhythm Every time I’m fitna risk I can hear you tripping Every time I see your pictures I get in my feelings This big life in bright lights now you in the hindsight It could be the same for me so imma get my mind right Turn this pain to something I can use moving forward Nothing moves but the money but my souls getting colder I mix knowledge wit a God body imma soldier I know your energy is still love that can hold us You’re in the air plus beneath the ground Clear like generating words you receive the sound I’m getting better every day you can hear it when I pray I never left them I just led the way it’s GTA YAHWEH I find it hard explaining it to God how much I miss you If I could turn the clock back in time I would sit with you Listen to your words more carefully I close my eyes so I can see the lifetime that you shared with me I don’t even think I got the words still I smile but my heart heavy as an anvil This my new reality so imma make you proud of me Beginning where the end starts my love sent Heavy Hearts We know you’re never coming back but imma ride wit it Pain blurring up my vision when I’m reminiscing I can’t even comprehend the way things is different It like I’m having such a perfect day but something’s missing Help me get up outta that is all I ask for Lord give me what I need to get this cash more So I can give my family the things they ask for I ain’t lying but I am trying tho time is old But it’s who we fighting no more excuses imma do it righteous Just know your influence on me made me shine brightest If it gets quiet I don’t need sound Put requirements on me now Making sure I listen I ain’t perfect I’m circumventing I’m a person made in Gods image I’m for certain when I look around it’s all beautiful So imma stand tall and tilt my crown like the usual I find it hard explaining it to God how much I miss you If I could turn the clock back in time I would sit with you Listen to your words more carefully I close my eyes so I can see the lifetime that you shared with me I don’t even think I got the words still I smile but my heart heavy as an anvil This my new reality so imma make you proud of me Beginning where the end starts my love sent Heavy Hearts
