She Only Exists on Paper

Verse 1 I fell in love with someone who was never born. Someone made of words, of pages, of someone else's dreams. She never touched my skin. Never whispered my name. Never held me when I cried. And still, somehow, she became the safest place I've ever known. Verse 2 I've loved real people before. They left cracks in my heart and called them memories. They promised they would stay. They promised I was enough. And every promise ended with an empty room and me learning how to cry quietly. Pre-Chorus So maybe that's why I chose someone impossible. Someone who could never leave me. Because she was never here in the first place. Chorus She only exists on paper. She only lives inside my head. I know I'll never see her standing at my door. I'll never hear her footsteps. Never feel her arms around me. Never wake up beside her. And God, it breaks me to know that the person I love the most was never real. Verse 3 Sometimes I talk to her when nobody is awake. I tell her about my day. I tell her what hurts. For a few minutes, I can almost pretend she's listening. Then I look at the empty chair across the room. And remember. She will always be an empty chair. Bridge I wish I could step inside the story. Just for one night. Just long enough to hold her hand and tell her how much she saved me without ever knowing my name. But stories have endings. And mine doesn't have her in it. Chorus She only exists on paper. She only breathes in my imagination. I can memorize every word she says, but I'll never hear her voice. I can picture her face with my eyes closed, but I'll never watch her smile at me. And every night I fall asleep loving someone the real world will never give me. Verse 4 Tonight I'm crying quietly so nobody hears. Her name is on my lips, but there's nobody here to answer. I hold the book against my chest like it could somehow become a heartbeat. Like paper could become skin. Like fiction could become real. It can't. I know it can't. Chorus She only exists on paper. And maybe that's the cruelest part. She was everything I needed her to be. She never broke my heart. Never lied to me. Never walked away. Because she was never capable of staying. And I'm left loving someone I can never lose and can never have. Outro Maybe in another life I'll find someone real who loves me without leaving. Maybe in another life my heart won't be so tired. Maybe there will be a world where the person I love can actually reach for my hand. Until then, I'll close the book. Wipe my tears. Turn off the light. And pretend, just for a little while, that somewhere beyond these pages, she is real. And somewhere beyond this life, maybe I finally get the happiness I couldn't find here. (ahhhh)