iruinit

I soften every sentence when I speak Afraid my voice might push you to the door I try to make myself less hard to keep Still feel like I’m too heavy to ignore I watch you drift before you even do Like my fear already knows the route I ruin it before you can If you leave, I’ll understand I’m what love learns to live without I ruin it so I won't get hurt I ruin it so I can only blame myself I apologize for wanting you to stay Like needing more is some disease I measure every word I say So you won’t have a reason to leave I hand you space before you ask And call that mercy, call that love I ruin it before you can If you leave, I’ll understand I’m what love learns to live without I ruin it so I won't get hurt I ruin it so I can only blame myself Maybe I come undone too fast Maybe I bruise at gentle hands I feel the ending in the past Before the present even lands I keep preparing for goodbye Like it’s the only thing I know So when you finally decide I won’t ask you not to go I ruin it before you can If you leave, I’ll understand I’m what love learns to live without I ruin it so I won't get hurt I ruin it so I can only blame myself It isn’t you, it’s how I’m made Too much ache beneath the skin Everyone eventually fades And I just help it happen