[Intro] you said you wanna hear what's going on in my head And I said I don’t think that’s healthy but what do I know [guitar solo] [Verse] You see, I don’t know if I can explain it, or that words could contain it, ’cause it’s this deep-pit kind of thing sitting in the darkest side of me. [Break] And the truth is, Yeah the truth is... [Break] I feel kinda stupid, toothless Like I don't know if I'll ever get through this This world is ruthless [Pre-hook] And I'm just sick of it all Sick of the fall My mountains are too high to climb And my valleys are too long [Hook] I’ve been holdin on, holdin on, hopin it slows but the ache keeps echoing under my bones yeah I’m holdin on, holdin on, nobody knows how the quiet keeps cutting when you’re always alone [Interlude] [Verse] my ribs are the fence line where the shadow keeps feeding - it’s not a feeling, it’s a constant bleeding, a slow, quiet noise in the bone that says: “you are not well, and you are profoundly alone.” [Pre-hook] Yeah, the days keep dragging, jagged, Every breath a little ragged, every hope I try to stack just caves back in. And I’m tired of the cycle, the spiral, the vital little lies I tell myself to make the weight seem lighter when it isn’t. [Hook] I’ve been holdin on, holdin on, hopin it slows but the ache keeps echoing under my bones yeah I’m holdin on, holdin on, nobody knows how the quiet keeps cutting when you’re always alone [Instrumental] [Bridge] But I keep moving anyway, ’cause what choice do I have? Keep patching up the panic with a half-laugh half-gasp, keep walking through the weather though the ground don’t hold. I’m not brave - just stubborn, and scared, and cold. [Verse] And I wish I could tell you I’m stronger than I feel, but I’m learning that honesty’s the only thing real. So here it is - the thinnest truth: I’m trying to stay, (I'm trying to stay) even when staying hurts, even when the hurt won’t go away. [Instrumental] [Hook] I’ve been holdin on, holdin on, hopin it slows but the ache keeps echoing under my bones yeah I’m holdin on, holdin on, nobody knows how the quiet keeps cutting when you’re always alone I’ve been holdin on, holdin on, hopin it slows but the ache keeps echoing under my bones yeah I’m holdin on, holdin on, nobody knows How the shadow you carry takes on a voice of its own