Ashes in My Coat

I still smell your raincoat On the back of my chair Got your blue cup cracked By the sink over there I talk to the silence Like it owes me a name Every room in this house Keeps on calling your flame I tried to fold this hurt Make it small, make it neat But it keeps on breathing Right under my feet I say I'm okay Then my voice slips thin 'Cause the wound you left open Keeps letting you in You left me burning Left me burning Now I'm holding ashes in my coat You left me burning Left me burning And I can't let go No, I can't let go There's a dent in the pillow Where your head used to land And your old silver lighter Still won't leave my hand I curse your sweet promises Then I pray they were true Such a holy kind of hurt Only came from you I tried to smile through it Like the brave ones do But my chest goes quiet When it thinks of you I keep my pride on Like a coat in the rain But the tears learn my address And come back again You left me burning Left me burning Now I'm holding ashes in my coat You left me burning Left me burning And I can't let go No, I can't let go If love was a door You slammed it hard Now I stand in the wreckage Counting every scar Tell me how do I live With your ghost in my name? I keep reaching for healing But I grab the pain You left me burning Left me burning Now I'm holding ashes in my coat You left me burning Left me burning And I can't let go No, I can't let go You left me burning Left me burning And I walk this road alone You left me burning Left me burning With ashes in my coat