[Verse 1] I didn't expect that. Finally solid, stable in life, and then, in the mail, somehow, there is a letter from the gargoyle. Hidden between bills and junk mail. both probably full of lies or empty promises. And I wanted to throw it away. It didn't deserve anything more than that. Bad enough that it drags me back into my past. Now I curse my new security—my self-confidence. I'll just open it. Just skim through it. [Chorus] Sudden memories start to flash, everything twisted, out of view. Why did his violence come to a close with me? Why was her silence all she knew? What did she trade? What did she fade? Now I remember her in shades of blue, and his friends came by in the evening too. And my body shivers—frozen in my veins, like something in me never moved on, it stayed. [Verse 2] What an absolute nerve. Excuses. Weak behavior. All buried beneath shallow statements. She makes it too easy for herself—saying she was too much of a coward back then. She knows what he did. SHE KNOWS WHAT HE DID! SHE KNOWS. SHE KNEW. So... how can anyone sell their child to beatings. And yet he was more brutal to me. More malicious. And I didn’t break. Not for any pact. [Bridge] I hate her… but I could have turned back too… And that thought is somehow louder than the anger. [Chorus] What did she trade? What did she fade? Now I remember her body shades of blue, and his friends came by in the evening too. And my body shivers—frozen in my veins, like something in me never moved on, it stayed. And I thought she was yelling at me in anger as I sat in the car and drove away. [Verse 3] I'm already out walking the dog, but every free step feels unfair. So why? Why are my eyes filling with tears? I should hate her. Curse her. But I can barely see, and the weight in my throat hurts. Even Cup is barking now… Please, Cup… Why didn't you tell me you got Cup for me? Why…? Why didn't I think a little more? And so I wept under the streetlamp… so lost… Cup somewhere back near the park entrance, and all I heard were footsteps. [Chorus – Final] What did she trade? What did she fade? Now I remember her body shades of blue, and his friends came by in the evening too. And my body shivers—frozen in my veins, like something in me never moved on, it stayed. Now all I can think is her sad life. And she doesn’t get a chance like me. and she went to the other side, the darkest side. Now there’s nothing left for me to answer and now I can’t reach her anymore. What a daughter I am… What a daughter I am… [Outro] I cant see a thing, the tears veil the night And i heard footsteps… Where is Cup? Why isnt he barking? All i heard where footsteps.
