One hundredth new beginning Still pray that there’s no ending I will no longer break I’ve gotten too used to bending And I’ve learned to forgive Our love has no condition And I know I’m a junkie Because you’re my addiction And I’m fatally hooked I found my surrender And I feel like nirvana Because I sold my soul Because in this hell I live in You’re my whole fucking world And I’d give it all up Just to have you The air in my chest When you leave I take my last breath And pray to a god I barely believe in For my piece of heaven On this worthless earth The only cure to my pain Till I return to this dirt I hope we’ll be together And you find your worth Beside me Because this life is what you make it If it wont give us a future together I’m going to take it And I’d never leave your side Because this heart would be vacant And I will never love again Because your spots been reserved Since my first breath In this worthless piece of shit Beating in this chest And it’ll always be yours until it stops And every time you leave You take a part of me And now you carry it all And I don’t know why I let you Take all of me You wear me down Sometimes I feel like I’m wasting my time And love wasn’t meant for me Because this is all I have And you’re still not here And I drown in the pain Alone. There’s no filling the void Don’t know if there’s a god But I’m still saying my prayers For him to end the pain But I don’t know how much soul is left Or where I’m going So many sleepless nights I wished you were there to hold me And I would take you on a journey If you don’t stop believing I’ll promise you I won’t Do you ever picture us not together Because I don’t Always two steps ahead and I tell you a lot but you still barely know me Just know I got a lot of heart To take all these scars While I wait for you to come home Because all of me is yours You always have been Been in this driveway Stuck in this car I look up at the sky And wish on so many stars I can’t even count it That look in your eyes Is a fountain, that makes me feel alive again Try to live in the moment But my thoughts always racing Memories keep replaying Got to stand on my guard Because my heart is deceiving But my mind knows Any day now you’ll be leaving To add another scar to this heart That will never stop bleeding Just slow it down And fill the void With the only friend I have left My slow self destruction As I count the days to you return And build my list of regrets Futile attempts to fill the void that you left Because you’re my missing piece The only piece that fits To all that is jagged torn and frayed I know I’m lying to myself Or this is not my fate And she will never be mine Won’t be the sunshine To cut through the dark Before my soul is overtaken And there is no turning back And my heart turns to black Compressed to coal Lit on fire Still absent of a glow with no warmth Dead inside cursed to walk this earth
