Verse 1 (gritty, slow build) Some days God gets funny with me Like He don’t like my plan Like He’s watchin’ me scramble From the back row i think i just heard him laugh Like He can’t see If this keeps happenin’ again and again and again and again I ain’t ever gonna be free I ain’t ever gonna win i aint ever gonna be able to not sin I wanna run, run, run East side, west side, anywhere but here Get the hell outta Dodge Gotta run - Disappear But He plants me in storms Calls it “character buildin’” Says, “Stay in the eye.” Lord, my will is willing but my soul is tired temptation… it appealing Pre-Chorus (building tension) Jesus, God .. what the what? Why we here again? Why’m I on my knees Tryna bargain what is? Chorus (big, gritty, emotional) Jesus God what the what Why am I on the floor? Can’t breathe, heart racing like guns n roses im feelin like im Knockin’ on Heaven’s door I know I don’t call much Unless I’m in too deep But c’mon, man, let’s level You promised i think Is this really You? Or am I talkin’ to the devil? ‘Cause I’m tryin’ not to let My faith fade into fear But I’m gettin’ unsteady Fightin’ wars in my head Is this really the plot? Or did you mean that? ⸻ Verse 2 (storytelling feel) I hate to question the divine Feels disrespectful, impolite But how ‘bout this be the last time You test how tight I hold the line I said last time, last timmmme Like a kid swearin’ they’re done Crying in the shower Under water to sound out the guuu ha im just kidding Ill live but do fix this I’ll be better than I’ve ever been Yeah I slipped Yeah I threw fits Yeah I sinned .. im humann Did a little bitchin’ Did a little backslidin’ Said I’d be Your soldier But forgot what I was fightin’ ⸻ Pre-Chorus (quieter, intimate) Jesus, God — what the what Why’m I back here again? Thought we settled this Thought we shook on it, i mean can i get an .. amen? ⸻ Chorus (full band, stomp clap build) Jesus — God — what the what Why am I on my knees? Can’t breathe, hands shakin’ Beggin’ You, please I don’t talk much Unless I’m scared to death But c’mon, let’s level I ain’t got much left Is this really You? Or am I speaking to the devil? I’m tryin’ not to let My faith fade to fear But I’m losin’ my footing While I’m fightin’ wars And if this is the story I don’t like this part. ⸻ Bridge (fast, rap/R&B cadence, Jessie Murph energy) Last time I beg on the tile floor Water runnin’ drownin’ out my war Promise You this Promise You that Take it all back if You cut me slack Yeah I slipped Yeah I tripped Yeah I lost my grip Said some shit Threw a fit Fell down quick But I been good At least I try If i could I would If You’d just reply Spare me, spare me What’s in Your power I’m talkin’ to steam In the middle of the shower I said I’d be holy Said I’d be strong But Lord I get tired Of bein’ wrong Last time, last time That’s what I say Every time You Make me stay. ⸻ Final Chorus (stripped back, raspy, almost spoken) Jesus… God… what the what Why’m I laughin’ through tears? Is this faith growin’ muscle Or just new fears? Is it really You? Or the devil in disguise? ‘Cause I’m tryin’ to believe But I’m tired of surprise If this is the lesson I guess I’m lost Hahaha… Guess that’s the cost.
