<Trigger Warning> Can the old me Just die already? So the new me Can live his life? I-I-I well, the old me was a good oldie, a homie who held me accountable, if addicted to being needed, and vulnerable, the people I met and knew made it sufferable, they looked up to a mountain who'd grew the people in his shade who'd, guarded endurance, eroded staying still, hatching plans uncountable, layered and parallel, ambitious O.E., artificial and natural, manipulating the amenable, ice-cold politico, social in small groups, small-town dramathurge, somehow I made it work, even if it killed me, but it was still me, but that was the old me I left those shadows be hind, unaccounted for i wanna let the mountain move to the prophet looking now for profit, fitness nutrition, I just don't wanna be a poor me hat in hand just begging for everybody's mercy-- (mercy) (mercy) (mercy) Can the old me Just die already? So the new me Can live his life? ice-cold, calculated, rational, study-focused, study-light power-source: infinite, motivation: all to live my life vibes: vibrant energy, synergy, dizzy-gone and, priceless no minute wasted, viceless, content, not neurotic, not psychotic not blocked, not depressed, not stressed, dice-less not relying on luck or probability only pure ability: the ability to sit down to lock in block out, distractions, knock out abstractions, zone in creations and generations from the dome that are ceaseless but hemmed in by discipline, not madness decision paralysis, replaced by analysis and action, moving forward, progress not congress not second-guessing every decision and action not lying down in bed burning hours in contraptions designed to amuse, not relentlessly distract i went out to get cigarettes, when am i coming back? Can the old me Just die already? So the new me Can live his life? Can the old me Just die already? So the new me Can live his life? i-i-i I wanna pen down an ego eulogy denouncing who I used to be that other people liked about me but that old me holds me in prison that will cage me, living off generosity no-body in this world is so generous, it's unanimous everybody's out for number one, i gotta put myself first among equals, the world's a little darker cash money's harder to earn, if I had more to burn i'd be kind, I can't afford it, I gotta leave that all behind be kind as a hobby, a soul-building necessity whatever's left of my christianity can it pay the bills, can you eat morals can a compass fix the roof? water leaking, whatever I was seeking guess I'm not strong enough, guess I'm a weakling Can the old me Just die already? So the new me Can live his life? Can the old me Just die already? So the new me Can live his life?
