Drifting Off the Edge

[Intro – DJ Chop / Female Lead] Staring at the wall Clock hands crawl, I don't move at all Phone face down on the floor Same four thoughts that I had before Room so quiet but my head so loud Drowning in the middle of a silent crowd [Hook – Female Lead] I feel like a ship in a dead sea Waves don't crash, they just stare back at me Drifting, drifting, all this silence loud Everybody around, but they fade to clouds [Verse – Female Lead] Bored out my brain Scroll through pain like it's just a game Group chat jokes that I never send Typing, deleting, start again Mama in the kitchen, humming some song I say I'm fine, she don't press long Sink full of dishes, heart full of static Smile automatic, habits, panic Dark jokes on my tongue, taste like rust Laugh with my friends, but it feels like dust They say, "hit me up," when it gets too much But they flinch when I really open up Search bar full of questions I can't say aloud Tabs full of answers that would break my mom proud "How far down is too far gone?" Screen glows back, doesn't say I'm wrong [Pre‑Chorus – Female Lead] Heart on pause, thoughts on ten Tell myself, "Tomorrow, I’ll feel right again," but Lines in my head like a prison bar Staring at the ceiling like it’s all too far Then I see his eyes in the hallway glow Little brown mirror saying, "Don’t let go," so [Chorus – Female Lead] I feel like a ship in a dead sea Hull full of holes where the hope should be If I disappear, would the water mind? Or would it close right up like I was never alive I feel like a ship in a dead sea But I heard your voice say "stay with me" If I disappear, who will he become? So I hold this hurt, keep breathing through the numb [Rap Switch‑Up – Male Vocalist] Yeah Late night, same fight, face lit by the phone light Mind like a cage and I’m pacing the whole night Scroll past lives that are staged in a gold light I’m in the dark tryna fake that I’m alright Therapist tab in my browser, I stall Tell myself "later" and never make the call Panic in my chest when I hear it ring once Hang up quick, now I’m back to the fronts Mirror like, "Who that?" I don’t even know that Smiles in the photos, pain where the throat at Thumbs on the screen, type "I can’t cope" Then I hit backspace, choke on hope All these rappers talk death like a trend now Post one quote, then they press send, bow I ain’t tryna glamorize no grave I’m just tryna show you how close I came How the blade in the drawer felt loud some nights How the belt on the door felt right some nights How the bridge by the school felt near some days How the thought of my fam pulled me off that ledge Every bar that I write, that’s a lifeline Every rhyme that I spit, that’s a skyline In a city in my head where the lights gone dim But I still draw stars on the page with a pen If you feel this, you ain’t weak, you a fighter You ain’t "too much," you a human, not lighter They can’t flick you off, you don’t burn that cheap You a whole damn sun that forgot how to heat [Bridge – Female Lead (Male Ad‑libs)] Yeah, I'm still bored, yeah, I'm still tired (still here) Still got nights where I feel expired (so near) But I made one promise in this quiet room "I'm not going out, I'm pulling through" [Build – Call & Response] Female Lead: I feel like a ship in a dead sea Male (under): Still here… still breathing… that’s me Female Lead: Drifting, drifting, all this silence loud Male (under): Turn that pain to a voice in the crowd [Final Chorus – Duet Blend] Female Lead: I feel like a ship in a rough sea Cracks still showing, but I'm not sinking clean Drifting, drifting, but I turn around Tiny little lighthouse in a yelling crowd Yeah… still here… still fighting… Female Lead: I feel like a ship in a rough sea Hands on the wheel when the dark hits me If I disappear, they'll replay this song So I write one more verse and I try to hold on [Outro – Spoken/Rap – Male Vocalist] If you up late, staring at the ceiling fan Feeling like nobody out here understand Play this back when the pain too strong ‘Cause you’re still here now, and that means you’re strong One more breath, one more night, hold on