You say I deserve happiness and love I'm the person no one wants to be around Small mistakes accumulate, friendships lost Happy memories are nothing but ghosts Present experiences haunting my senses A neutral life seen through negative lenses Guilt and shame reign supreme, all is over Hate, the consequence of my existence Forgotten by our mother Gaia, forever alone Existential questions start to arise, unheard Discovering the darkest side of my feelings No one will ever save me from my anxiety My inner demons are my best friends Until they drown into hopelessness with me Surrounded by millions of invisible bacteria I will never feel alone again, talking to them Thousands of questions, zero answers The first noble truth, everyone suffers The second noble truth, I shouldn't wish The sorite's paradox, language is illusory Through mental categorizations we know Trying to classify reality into smaller roots To gather an approximate understanding Travelling through subjective semantics Signs are coming from the heavens above Warnings coming from the realms below Earth's rotation syncronized with Morpheus Transitioning between wake and sleep A transitory cease of worries and fears Until the night we stop waking up, forever Pleasure, an illusion to prevent extinction Life, meaningless parasites of dead worlds "Life swings like a pendulum back and forward, between pain and boredom" (Arthur Schopenhauer) Geocentrism, a false comfort from our past Until an uncomfortable realization came Matter and energy, arranged meaninglessly Happiness, an abstract unlocated concept From microscopical to astronomical Patterns repeat, golden ratios everywhere An existence without any meaning at all This everlasting seek for joy leads us astray It is said I'll be rewarded for my good deeds Heaven and hell after this life, or in this one? Fellow humans deliberately torturing others Turning our wonderful planet into hell Religion, a metaphysical excuse to be evil Kindness, a somewhat forgotten way of life Always asking for mercy, but never giving it Be gentle to others, care for a better future Overwhelmed by sensorial inputs, anxious No safe space where to release this tension Sorrow and anguish crawling inside of me As if my whole body was turned into stone Paralyzed by my own emotions I stand still Not being able to react to these stimuli I leave this state of mind by going to sleep Midnight sun, experiencing the worthless Until forgiveness spreads like a disease Feeding itself from all the evil of this world Our species will inherit selfishness' traits The big personality spectrum's shift is here Where average and median move into better Though the grand totality still remains full Wondering about the future of my actions Will I still be rude, annoying and sassy?
