ʟᴀsᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡɴ ᴠᴇʀsɪᴏɴ

[V1] You said, “I don't think you're as broken as you think” I thanked you with a smile and let it pass There's a practiced mercy in agreeing When the truth could make a good day end too fast Broken means the pieces made it somewhere Means the damage left an object to repair Mend the shape of what belonged together But I can't fix a woman who isn't there [PC1] People get so hopeful when I say I don't recognize myself these days Losing who I was is temporary or Like I misplaced her somewhere on the way [C] But you didn't know her You don't know who you're asking me to find I knew her before fear could take a good thing And interrogate half to death each night They swear she's underneath all this somewhere One day I'll remember how to reach her I've lived behind these eyes the entire time If she were here, I'd be the first to see her [V2] Writing survives in old notebooks Recognized thoughts from an author unknown I can tell the stories how she told them Even laugh in all the places laughter goes Photographs make us look identical Her face is mine; the evidence agrees I can answer questions meant to prove identity And fail the one that matters most to me [PC] I stand beside the woman people miss And wear her features well enough to pass Some days I impersonate her beautifully Especially when I laugh [C2] But you didn't know her You don't know what it means to miss her here To hear somebody swear she's recoverable While wearing all the proof she disappeared They swear she's underneath all this somewhere Enough conviction makes me doubt what's true If people keep recognizing her inside me Why the fuck can't I see her in here too? [B] I don't know the date, that's what fucking kills me I didn't know the last time was the last No grand goodbye worth remembering She disappeared inside a day that passed I would've memorized her if I'd known Her voice, her laugh, the ordinary things I mourn a woman nobody believes is gone Because the woman they're mourning looks like me [FC] So tell me what you're seeing Tell me what gave her away Was it something in my voice When you looked at me that way? Did you recognize the woman I've been grieving all this time? Because if you saw her somewhere Please Tell me where She's mine