I watched you leave and sealed my mouth shut tight And turned my love to poison overnight I wanted to scream, to make you stay, to bleed But I just stood there, choking on my need I told myself that silence made me strong But silence was the place where rot belonged I should have said you broke me, made me small I should have said I loved you through it all I should have said it in that room Alive, but learning how to breathe in gloom I should have said I'm angry at your face For how you made my anger feel like grace You still belong to me You still belong to me The thing I never said Still lives inside my chest You still belong to me You still belong to me It is the chain, the cell The lock, the key Now I confess it to these empty walls How I rehearsed your name down empty halls How I regret the war I did not wage How I still love you, even through my rage I hate that I still check the phone at night I hate that I still dream you hold me tight Forgive me I was cruel to keep it in To let us die without the truth within The thing I never said now eats at me It pulls my tongue, it will not set me free I held the wound and called it peace But quiet only taught the hurt to speak You still belong to me You still belong to me The thing I never said Still lives inside my chest You still belong to me You still belong to me It is the chain, the cell The lock, the key I kept your shadow in my throat I kept the blame, I kept the hope If I had broken sooner, maybe I would have learned to let you leave You still belong to me You still belong to me The thing I never said Still lives inside my chest You still belong to me You still belong to me I let you go in name But not in memory
