(Verse 1) I bite my tongue ‘til it bleeds at night Hold my breath just to stop a fight Everybody says “just let it out” But every time I do, I drown I turn small things into hurricanes Burn down bridges, then take the blame I swear I never mean to break The only things I try to save (Pre-Chorus) So I smile and say I’m fine again Even when my head’s caving in (Chorus) ‘Cause talking never helps me heal It just makes everything too real BPD inside my veins Makes love feel like a war campaign Anxiety won’t let me sleep Depression pulls me six feet deep And every time I try to explain myself I just fuck it up and hate myself So I stay quiet, shut down slow ‘Cause nobody hears me anyway though Talking never helps at all It just makes me watch myself fall (Verse 2) One bad text and I spiral fast Relive every wound I thought had passed Too much feeling, nowhere to go My mind’s too loud, but I talk too low I push away the ones I need Then beg them not to leave me I know I’m hard to understand Hell, I barely think I can (Pre-Chorus) So I lock my pain behind my teeth Before it ruins everything (Chorus) ‘Cause talking never helps me heal It just makes everything too real BPD inside my veins Makes love feel like a war campaign Anxiety won’t let me sleep Depression pulls me six feet deep And every time I try to explain myself I just fuck it up and hate myself (Bridge) Maybe I’m too much Maybe not enough Maybe every open wound Just scares away the love Maybe silence is safer Maybe numb is better Maybe no one stays long enough To survive my weather (Final Chorus) But I still wanna be understood Even if I’m no good at it Still wanna believe someday My mind won’t feel this catastrophic Maybe talking’s just hard for me Not hopeless like it seems to be Maybe there’s a version of me somewhere That doesn’t live inside this fear And maybe one day I won’t feel Like every emotion’s there to kill But tonight I’m just another mess Trying hard to coexist with this
