Reaching For The Dawn

The rain knows my name The trees know it too I was never lost Just tired of walking through The voices The weight The noise inside my head Trying to tell me I was made from the dead Everybody keeps pointing at the scars Like that’s the only map I am Talking ‘bout the storms I’ve weathered Like I don’t still reach for the sun Yes I’ve sat with empty mornings Yes I’ve known that heavy sound But don’t build your house around my shadows When my roots are reaching out I don’t pray to the darkness I don’t kneel before the pain I just learned how to survive it When it came like freezing rain No, I am not the wound I am not the breaking I am not the nights Spent barely hanging on I am the garden still growing The river still running The wild green thing Reaching for the dawn I want fireflies and old songs Tomato vines against the fence A place where I can finally breathe Without becoming someone else I want wolves asleep beside me Frogs singing through the dusk A few good souls around the table And enough sky above for trust Everybody talks about survival Like surviving is the goal But I want something deeper I want somewhere I belong No, I am not the wound I am not the breaking I am not the nights Spent barely hanging on I am the garden still growing The river still running The wild green thing Reaching for the dawn I’m tired of being introduced By the things that tried to kill me Tired of every road returning To the places that once held me I know the dark I know it well Don’t need another lesson Show me the mountain Show me the water Show me the life I’m building I am the porch light glowing I am the pine wind blowing I am the deer trail Vanishing through the green I am the hand still reaching The heart still believing That peace is more Than a beautiful dream No, I am not the wound I am not the breaking I am not the nights Spent barely hanging on I am the garden still growing The river still running The wild green thing Reaching for the dawn The rain knows my name The trees know it too I was never born for the darkness I was always growing through.