[Intro] Yeah... uh... Dark night, can't sleep, yeah, it's that hour again... Smoke in the lungs, demons in the cut. [Verse 1] Pourin' up poison tryna drown out the noise, Mama said baby, you lost all your joy, Basement dweller, heart cold, no toys, Devil on my shoulder, said boy make a choice. Bottle after bottle, got my vision blurry, Anxious mind racin', always in a hurry, Pop one, smoke one, till my soul get worried, Tryna kill the pain but the pain don't bury. Shadows on the wall watch me when I sleep, Whispers in the vent sayin' secrets deep, Woke up in a sweat, got blood on my teeth, Bite down on my sorrow, can't chew, can't breathe. Same loop, same hurt, same dirty cup, Same lie, one more time then I'm done I'm up, But I'm down in the dirt where the worms reside, Needle in my soul where the hurt collide. [Pre-Chorus] Can't breathe, can't sleep, can't dream no more, Pray to God but don't know what I'm prayin' for, Demons knockin', they don't use the door, They live inside where the pain was born. [Chorus] I'm faded, jaded, broke and hated, Medicine cabinet, overmedicated, Soul vacant, heartbreak achin', Tryna numb the pain but the pain just waitin'. I'm faded, jaded, broke and hated, Sippin' on sorrow, overmedicated, Smile fakin', soul shakin', This hell I'm in, man, I made it. [Verse 2] Backwood full of ashes, lungs full of regret, Pocket full of nothin', mind full of debt, Friends all ghosted, they don't call, they left, Only thing loyal is this bottle to my neck. Memphis rain on the window, grey sky, Mama cryin' on the phone, son why? I don't know why, I just know I try, Every time I climb up, I fall from high. Pills on the dresser like candy corn, Devil said take 'em since the day I was born, Lookin' in the mirror, I don't see me no more, See a stranger with scars tryna even the score. Codeine dreams turn to concrete screams, Lo-fi loop got me stuck in between, Tryna kill depression with the smoke and lean, But the lean just leans me deeper in the deep. [Pre-Chorus] Can't breathe, can't sleep, can't feel no more, Lost keys to the house that I had before, Heard my name in the hallway floor, Voice sound like me from a year before. [Chorus] I'm faded, jaded, broke and hated, Medicine cabinet, overmedicated, Soul vacant, heartbreak achin', Tryna numb the pain but the pain just waitin'. I'm faded, jaded, broke and hated, Sippin' on sorrow, overmedicated, Smile fakin', soul shakin', This hell I'm in, man, I made it. [Verse 3] Yeah, this that real life, no flex, no cap, 40 years old tryna crawl right back, From the bottom of a bottle where the soul turns black, Where you trade your future for a one-way track. But I heard a voice through the 808, Said you ain't finished boy it ain't too late, Had to sit in the dark to appreciate, That pain can be a teacher if you let it translate. Still got demons, I ain't lyin' they stay, But I don't feed 'em like I did yesterday, One day clean is a win, let it lay, Write it in the smoke, let the music pray. Sober thoughts hit harder than the dope did, Clarity cut deeper than the coke did, Lookin' at my life like I broke it I broke it, Now I'm pickin' up pieces tryna cope kid. [Bridge] Oh I been down down down down low, Where the river don't run and the wind don't blow, If you hear this and you feel like I felt, You ain't alone, even in that hell... [Chorus - Final] I'm faded, jaded, but I ain't done breakin', Woke up from the numb where my soul was achin', Still vacant, but my heart still shakin', Tryna face the pain stead of runnin' escapin'. I'm faded, jaded, but I'm still breathin', Tears in the cup, but my soul still leavin' that, Dark place, that dark basement, Walked through hell and I came back blazin'! [Outro] Yeah... still breathin'... Heavy heart, heavy 808s... If you feel it, you feel it... Don't drown in it... Let it rain...
