[Intro] Conversation? No Confession ? Maybe Might sound offensive But I’m not sorry… Even God can’t save me now… Let the waterfall on me Abyss [Verse 1] My head is a mad house with all windows broken Every room got a wishful thought left unspoken I learned how to laugh with a throat full of sorrow Say “I’m good” like I might mean it tomorrow My body got fatigued of carrying my past My mind went delirious , then screamed like a lunatic Medication bottles like bible on the shelf Little white promises I couldn’t give myself I tattoos all my damage underneath these mysterious skins Nobody sees what the mirror reflects,it’s hide within I made a religion out of running away Then hated myself for wanting to pray…. [Pre-Chorus] Everything I touched turned heavy and hallow Every love I held got unsteady Friends became strangers, strangers became friends And every beginning felt destined to end [Chorus] I’m messy, fucking messy Everything inside me’s messy Mind gone dark, body gone empty Love gone wrong,hands gone shaky I’m fucked up, fucked up, nobody can save me But I dress it up like an accessory of luck Tell the world that I’m okay , nobody save me Then fall apart when I’m away I’m messy, messy Fucking messy [Verse 2] There were many nights I made war with my own demons Turned self-destruction into self-protection Bad chem , bad company, bad decisions Bad reputation, Too many substances, too many collisions Psychiatrist asking, “How do you feel?” Like feelings were something I could make real I said, “I’m fine,” with a mouth full of lies While something inside me was begging to die The people around me were cruel in their fake angelic wing Sweet little words with a knife behind eyes Some left quietly, some left loudest scars Some taught me love was just breaking more to the hearts [Pre-Chorus2] So I broke myself just to feel something Loved the wrong people just to feel something I became every wound that they gave me Then wondered why nobody could save me [Chorus] I’m messy, fucking messy Everything inside me’s messy Mind gone dark, body gone empty Love gone wrong,hands gone shaky I’m fucked up, fucked up, nobody can save me But I dress it up like an accessory of luck Tell the world that I’m okay , nobody save me Then fall apart when I’m away I’m messy, messy Fucking messy [Bridge - soft intimate heartfelt stripped down] My father is gone. My friends are gone. Some people stayed just long enough to do more damage. And some of the worst things were things I did to myself. I wish I could say I found the light. I didn’t. I just found another morning. God Will this get better soon? The devil in my room ? God Why the devil Still keep coming at me? [Final Chorus — bigger, emotional] I’m messy, messy Still fucking messy Heart still bruised, soul still heavy Still not healed, still not ready I’m fucked up, fucked up Still got demons waking up But I wash my face And I leave my bed Put a little fake smile on And face the day instead I’m messy, messy Maybe that’s what makes me human All these cracks and contradictions All this ruin, still I’m moving I’m a fucking messy
