I Know What This Could Cost |A Sinister Sister Creative Production

[Verse 1] Yo, I mapped out every exit, every time I packed and quit Know the floor plan of the fallout, where each little accusation split Seen a smile fold in half, still said your name, like old habit Like a note I kept too long in my coat, plain tragic A hand can reach for you soft, and still keep something in the grip Yeah, I kissed the mess in front of me, played my role, took the hit Loved the dark like it had manners, knew its grin and all its tricks Never came in looking holy, nah, I came up through the bricks Got these scars that do the talking, I don't need to overstate Got the records of the leaving, got a key that won't behave In, or out, depending on the lesson that my body kept This ain't some clean-slate sermon, watch the old boards creak and step [Pre-Chorus] So don’t you come at me with "too wise to ever break" Or "too worn down to stay," I’ve heard that lazy line all day, all day Seen the door swing both ways, felt that cold air on my skin And I’m still here in my own name, with nothing left but what is real [Chorus] Yo, I know the price tag on this, I know, I know What it could crack open inside me, still I say yes, still I go If love rolls up mean, I’m ready, heart open, hands bare Won't turn to marble just because the hurt likes to live there I know what this could cost me, word, and I'm choosing it anyway [Verse 2] Yeah, I was that woman in the blue coat under CVS's light Phone at 3%, cold fries, talking to myself about "maybe tonight" Watched a wedding ring flash once, then go dull under fluorescent trim Seen the rent due, dishes stacked, and the whole sweet picture go dim So if my hands shake when I reach for the glass tonight Don't call it fear, don't call it weakness, let that little judgment slide It's just my body keeping ledger, every room I left behind Every gap that came between us, still talking in my mind And if I ask for all of you, best believe I'm bringing mine Not the polished little version, but the one with the laugh lines Every crack and every fracture, every story pressed in deep This ain't no showroom offering, it's the part I keep [Pre-Chorus] I ain't blind, nah, I'm brave, there’s a difference, can you hear? I can taste the bitter edges, still I set my whole self here For the easy path, the cushioned fall, I never learned that route And when the truth comes knocking, you can bet I'll answer out loud [Chorus] Yo, I know the price tag on this, I know, I know What it could crack open inside me, still I say yes, still I go If love rolls up mean, I’m ready, heart open, hands bare Won't turn to marble just because the hurt likes to live there I know what this could cost me, word, and I'm choosing it anyway [Bridge] Maybe that's the mercy, not to stay untouched, you feel me? Not to build my whole damn life around what never fixed me Maybe courage is a doorway, palm on the frame, and I still push Saying, "I’ve been burned before, and still I came back to the hush" The hush, the heat, the little spark, I know exactly what it is now This ain't my first hard lesson, I know the when, the why, the how [Final Chorus] Yo, I know the price tag on this, I know, I know What it could crack open inside me, still I say yes, still I go If love rolls up mean, I’m ready, heart open, hands bare Won't turn to marble just because the hurt likes to live there I know what this could cost me, word, and I'm choosing it anyway I know what this could cost me, yeah, and I'm choosing it every day!