Afraid I Never

Yeah Funny how you can be alive And never really live Alarm goes off, same room, same day Got big plans but I push 'em away Whole damn life on a someday list Too busy thinking 'bout the things I missed Had big dreams, let 'em collect dust Wanted that life, never made that jump Kept playing safe, kept staying in line Now I'm looking at the years like, where went mine? Everybody's moving, I'm stuck in place Got a thousand excuses and a straight face Said I needed time, said I needed a sign Truth is, I was scared to make a life of mine I'm not scared to die I'm scared I never lived Spent my whole life holding back With nothing left to give Watched the whole world move While I stood outside the door If I'm only here one time What the hell am I waiting for? One more year, one more excuse One more chance that I let get loose Kept my head down, never took that shot Now I wonder what I could've got What if I fail? What if I fall? What if I find I'm not built for it all? What if I try and I lose my way? Better than wondering till my dying day Can't blame fate, can't blame the clock Can't blame the door if I never knocked I kept myself in a self-made cage Now I'm done letting fear dictate my age I'm not scared to die I'm scared I never lived Spent my whole life holding back With nothing left to give Watched the whole world move While I stood outside the door If I'm only here one time What the hell am I waiting for? What if I fall? Then I hit the ground What if I fail? At least I went down What if I lose? What if I win? What if my real life Hasn't even begun yet? No more waiting for the stars to align No more wasting what's left of my time No permission slip, no perfect plan I'm done being scared of the life I can have Let the world go right, I'll find my lane I'd rather feel loss than feel nothing again One shot here, I finally see The biggest thing holding me back was me I'm not scared to die I'm scared I never lived I'm done keeping everything I was too scared to give Let the whole world move I ain't standing at the door I've been waiting all my life I ain't waiting anymore Not one more day. Not one more excuse.