First Call (Catdirt’s English Mix)

【Verse A】 Your skin is so beautiful Just like fine, high-quality agar jelly If I poked it, I know it’d smell sweet But my eyes are empty, hollow holes Your outline blurs — and I see a jellyfish instead Ah… so transparent. So unfair. 【Verse B】 Just passing you by — and my lungs Fill up with feelings I can’t process Coughing, choking, spit My own saliva feels so filthy 【Chorus】 But I’m just a foolish rubber doll Stretched-out arms — an attic ghost Staring at you, right here, right now What on earth am I even doing? I’m not invited, am I? The air here… it doesn’t suit my skin 【Verse A2】 I’m sure you have wings on your back Invisible wings — too strong for any flyswatter to crush You leave me behind, flying up to the stain on the ceiling My feet stick fast to the floor wax And I just want to melt away into the dirty water 【Verse B2】 When you smile… for just a moment The world feels like it makes a little more sense Just my imagination — the world is still Sharp-edged, square, and hurting 【Chorus】 ‘Cause I’m just a foolish rubber doll Rags stuffed inside where my organs should be Writhing around on this beautiful carpet What am I even doing here? I don’t belong here, do I? I’m nothing but a failed, broken cream puff 【Outro】 Run away, run away Before the locks on me dissolve If I touch you… I’ll dirty you So goodbye, my fine, sweet agar jelly