[Intro, dry spoken voice, no music] I keep making this a joke. Give me a second. [Verse 1, tightly held emotion] Your name is in a page I never meant to show, Right beside a sentence saying how much I owe To having you around, to the way we just connect. Then I close it, call you up, ask what you're doing next. I can tell an empty room exactly what I feel, Put a rhythm underneath it, make the whole thing sound real. But sit you down in front of me, I start editing the truth, Cut the part where I need someone, leave the part that sounds bulletproof. You've been getting all my headlines, I keep hiding in the print, Say I'm good so fucking quickly you can't even finish asking it. And I hate that I do that, 'cause it makes you stand outside Of a door I keep complaining nobody ever tries. You don't need some perfect version, I don't know who that one's for, He's exhausting, always talking, always halfway out the door. I wrote down how much you matter. You deserved to hear it then. Instead I saved it with the other things I thought I'd say again. [Hook, raw projected voice, heavy drums] Don't laugh with me this time, I'm trying to get it right. I need you in my life. I need you in my life. [Verse 2, urgent double-time bursts, anger turns inward] Listen to me turn a feeling to a problem I can solve, Get specific, scientific, put a diagram on the wall. Find a reason, find a method, find a better way to start, Anything to keep my mouth a little distance from my heart. And I'm tired of being clever at the exact wrong fucking time, Making everything a story where I get the final line. You don't have to call me brilliant, you don't have to call me strong, Let me finish one whole sentence without proving I belong. I've been dressing up affection till it looks like good advice, You say something that you feel, I offer ways to make it right. Maybe you just wanted company. Maybe I did too. Maybe all these extra words were what I stood behind with you. So I'm stopping in the middle. Let it come out incomplete. Let my breathing hit the microphone. Let me hear myself speak. I am grateful that I know you. I want you to know me too. Even when the answer's ugly. Even when I haven't got a clue. [Hook, louder, strained but intelligible] Don't laugh with me this time, I'm trying to get it right. I need you in my life. I need you in my life. [Bridge, beat cuts, bare voice, cracking] You haven't gone anywhere. I haven't lost you. I just don't want silence to be what I offer you. You can take a second. You don't have to say it back. I'm gonna leave these words exactly where they're at. [Final hook, half-time, exposed voice] Don't laugh with me this time, I'm trying to get it right. I need you in my life. I'm leaving in that line. [Outro, spoken, no music] No punchline.
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