Verse 1 I learned how to smile with blood on my hands Learned how to speak in numbers, not prayers I’ve held your mother while the monitor flatlined Said “I’m sorry” like it wasn’t the thousandth time I drive home with sirens still in my head Every red light looks like someone’s dead I scrub my skin but I can’t wash away The faces that follow me into the day Pre-Chorus They say, “You’re strong, you’re built for this” But they don’t feel the weight of every “what if” Chorus I give pieces of my soul every shift Till I don’t recognize what’s left of it I save lives but I’m losing mine One silent breakdown at a time This badge don’t bleed but my heart does I run on caffeine, guilt, and love If healing hurts this fucking much Tell me—who heals us? Verse 2 I memorize the sound of a final breath Like it’s a language I never meant to learn I joke with coworkers just to survive Laughing so no one sees me die inside I miss birthdays, holidays, sleep I trade my peace for promises I can’t keep I tell myself “Just one more call” But the weight just keeps stacking, wall to wall Pre-Chorus They clap when we’re heroes on the news But disappear when the trauma breaks through Chorus I give pieces of my soul every shift Till I don’t recognize what’s left of it I save lives but I’m losing mine One silent breakdown at a time This badge don’t bleed but my heart does I run on caffeine, guilt, and love If healing hurts this fucking much Tell me—who heals us? Bridge I dream in code blues and hospital lights Wake up fighting battles that ended last night I carry the ghosts that didn’t make it home And pretend I’m not drowning, just treading alone They say, “Don’t take it personal” But how do you not When their last heartbeat Dies in your palms Breakdown (quiet, almost spoken) I’m tired of being strong I’m tired of being brave I’m tired of surviving Things no one sees, no one names Final Chorus I gave pieces of my soul every shift Now I’m stitched together just trying to exist I save lives but I’m barely fine Still showing up, still crossing lines This uniform hides the cracks in me This job took more than it gave to me If healing hurts this fucking much Please tell me— Who heals us? Outro I’ll clock in tomorrow, like I always do With a broken heart and a steady pulse too Still caring, still bleeding, still showing up Because somehow… love is louder than the hurt
