[Intro] My internal clock is broken But it never stops ticking It just keeps choosing A different definition of morning I can't sleep early I can only sleep later So I keep pushing the night Until tomorrow becomes yesterday [Verse 1] I lie in bed Trying to negotiate with unconsciousness Like sleep is a contract I haven't learned how to ratify Close my eyes Wait for silence Wait for darkness Wait for my brain to stop Conducting an orchestra Nobody else can hear But nothing happens My body says it's tired My mind says absolutely not And somehow midnight becomes three Three becomes six Six becomes another morning I wasn't prepared to meet The clock keeps moving But my schedule doesn't follow It drifts further from the world Every time I try to force it back [Chorus] I can't sleep earlier I can only stay up longer That's how I fix the damage By creating more of it Push the bedtime forward Push it again Push it until morning Is somewhere I've already been Then eventually The clock wraps around And I'm back where I started It's not a reset It's a revolution My entire sleep schedule Circling the planet Just to return to the same hour [Verse 2] Everyone says Just sleep earlier As if my brain has a button For immediate compliance As if exhaustion Automatically becomes sedation But I can't manufacture sleep By wanting it harder So instead I stay awake Until staying awake becomes impossible I borrow hours from tomorrow Spend them tonight Then spend tomorrow Trying to recover what I borrowed My solution sounds ridiculous Because it is I don't correct the clock I outlast it I stay awake Long enough for my broken rhythm To eventually collide With the schedule I wanted [Pre-Chorus] And for a moment It actually works I'm sleeping at the right time Waking at the right time Everything feels synchronized Then one night slips Then another And the clock starts drifting again [Chorus] I can't sleep earlier I can only stay up longer That's how I fix the damage By creating more of it Push the bedtime forward Push it again Push it until morning Is somewhere I've already been Then eventually The clock wraps around And I'm back where I started It's not a reset It's a revolution My entire sleep schedule Circling the planet Just to return to the same hour [Verse 3] Insomnia isn't silence It's consciousness without an exit Hours become indistinguishable The ceiling becomes familiar The darkness becomes routine Everyone else is unconscious While I'm awake Watching the world shut down One window at a time Then sunrise arrives And I'm still here Still awake Still negotiating Still wondering why my brain Refuses to recognize the concept Of a reasonable bedtime Eventually fatigue wins But only after I've pushed myself so far That tomorrow is already here [Bridge] So I chase sleep By running away from it Stay awake Stay awake Stay awake Until my exhaustion Finally overwhelms my resistance Then I sleep Wake up And start counting again Because the clock isn't broken In a way that stays broken It's broken In a way that keeps moving And that's worse [Final Chorus] I can't sleep earlier I can only stay up longer So I drag the night behind me Until the morning takes over I keep extending the darkness Until the darkness becomes daylight Then I keep going Until the numbers finally align For one brief moment My internal clock agrees With the rest of the world And I think Maybe this time Then the cycle starts again [Outro] Midnight Two AM Four AM Six Morning Another day Another attempt I'll fix it eventually I'll just stay awake A little longer And eventually I'll end up Right back where I started
