I can’t sleep. I don’t eat. Every mirror is a goddamn enemy. I’ve been trapped inside this hellscape, scribblin’ my own fate Wrote a thousand sins on the wall just to placate Therapist said I need God—he’s on break Now I talk to shadows that won’t even translate Paranoia's my plus one, tied to my shoelace Every thought’s a gun, cocked back in a suitcase Smile on my face but my soul’s in a car chase And I keep crashin’ in the same damn place WHAT’S LEFT OF ME?! WHEN I’M THE ENEMY?! I’M BURNIN’ BRIDGES JUST TO BREATHE! I’m a product of pain, A ghost in the rain, Screaming out loud but they all look away Every scar I earn turns into a name Tell me I’m fine— BUT I’M NOT OKAY Tried pills, tried prayer, tried bleedin’ it out Tried therapy once, but I ghosted the route Family’s like “you changed”—I don’t know who they mean I’m a haunted machine in a flesh routine Tattoos for trauma, laughter for pain I’m jokin’ around with a noose in my brain And I keep hearin’ voices in auto-tune Singin’ lullabies made for a padded room SOMETHING’S WRONG WITH ME! I’M BREAKIN' FREE! BUT I’M LOSIN’ PIECES CONSTANTLY! I’m a product of pain, A ghost in the rain, Screaming out loud but they all look away Every scar I earn turns into a name Tell me I’m fine— BUT I’M NOT OKAY TELL ME I’M HUMAN! TELL ME I’M WHOLE! I’VE BEEN LIVIN’ LIKE A DEMON WITH A DYING SOUL! KILL THE THERAPY—BURN THE SCRIPT! I’M A MONSTER THEY MADE—NOW I’M DONE WITH IT! I’m a product of pain, A ghost in the rain, Screaming out loud but they all look away Every scar I earn turns into a name Tell me I’m fine— BUT I’M NOT OKAY
