Yeah, feeling sick again Swore the last time was the last time But look at me on a slip again Wish I was different, but it's always the same So strained a feeling of that withdrawal pain And all my friends, they don't understand It's been a minute since you've got a bag, maybe it wasn't that bad And you can just have one now And I'll be taking one balloon so high, I'll never come down So wake me when it's over, I gotta try to fix this I'll call you when I'm sober, or when I'm not resistant I'm sorry that you love me, I know you hate it Fucked up when I stopped being grateful and got complacent I'm only high cuz I been feeling this low And that's the only way to make it back to normal I suppose And I know you think I'm perfect but all of that's a facade And trying to hide how I been feeling is lonelier than I thought So put the bottle down, I really don't trust what I do I make the worst decisions sober, that's the fucking truth Cuz I don't take the first hit when I'm already blitzed I take it clear headed uncomfortable in my fucking skin You don't know what I've done I swear to god that if you did Then your heart would be broken into a million pieces Had it all but I lost it in a blink Afraid to ask for help cuz I'm afraid of what you think Mama I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore Yeah, and I'm just hoping for some happy in the end Trying to be a hero, I can't even save my friends You don't know where I'm at or where I'm going where I've been So don't try to pretend I've got an itch I'll never scratch but I'm going until I bleed Like who the fuck are you to tell me what you think I really need? Cuz I've awoken up a beast that never stops until it feeds And it's been eating me alive inside my dreams And I don't mean to make you nervous when you think of me Everybody is leaving me It's hard to find someone to relate with me on this frequency I'm sitting in another meeting on the west side Raising my hand again This was not the plan again Just sick of being sick What's that insanity? Like it'll be different this time but it's never different though And it doesn't happen quick, it happens gradually I never thought that life would be this fucking difficult Just got a feeling I'm losing and maybe that's a fact Maybe these feelings aren't things that I should treat as facts And it'll pass if you just try to let it go But you will never understand the way it gets when I'm alone no I don't know how to love, I swear to god that if I did Your heart wouldn't be broken into a million pieces Had it all but I lost it in a blink Afraid to ask for help cuz I'm afraid of what you think Mama I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor To the ones who never left me we've been down this road before I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore Can't do this all on my own You're never too far gone to come back home Can't do this all on my own You're never too far gone to come back home Can't do this all on my own You're never too far gone to come back home
