[Verse 1 — restrained, conversational] You set the table like you always do Two plates, your phone facedown There's lipstick on a glass I never use You say a friend came round I ask you who, you say, "What difference?" You cut your food, I watch your hands I'm sitting right here next to you While you're sleeping with someone else again [Fragment — whispered, almost spoken] Is she there now? Don't look at me like that. You said you loved me this morning. Were you lying then, too? [Verse 2 — clipped, rhythmically tense] You kiss my forehead on your way out Tell me not to wait up late I know exactly where you're going I hate that I still say, "Okay" You come back smelling like her shampoo Slide into bed and pull me near You hold me like you haven't hurt me Like I should be glad you're here And I let you put your arm around me I let you tell me I'm the one God, I know what you've been doing So why am I the one who feels like scum? [Chorus — melodic, bitter, direct] You're here with me while you're seeing her You're holding me while you lie You look me in the face and tell me There's nobody else in your life And I'm right here, right here Trying not to come apart You're sleeping with her body And coming home to break my heart [Post-Chorus — layered, overlapping vocals] Nothing's wrong. Nothing's wrong. Then why can't you look at me? Nothing's wrong. Nothing's wrong. Who do you think I am? [Verse 3 — half-rapped, precise and cutting] Your phone lights up. You turn it over. I know that move. I've seen it twice. You say I'm making something out of nothing. Funny how you always get to decide. You say she's just a friend of yours. You say I'm tired, I'm in my head. You kiss me when I start to question you. I hate that sometimes it works instead. And I don't need to catch you in the act. I don't need pictures, names, receipts. I know the way you pull away from me. I know you don't come home to sleep. I keep rehearsing what I'll say If you ever tell the truth. But every time you ask me what's wrong, I end up comforting you. [Bridge — stripped back, fragile and almost spoken] Does she know about me? Does she know you call me baby? Does she know you hold me in the kitchen Then go upstairs and text her that you miss her? Does she know you sleep beside me? Does she know you kiss me goodbye? Or are you telling her the same damn story About the crazy girl at home tonight? Wait— Don't say you love me. Not right now. I can't stand to hear it With her name still in your mouth. [Final Chorus — full instrumental, increasingly desperate] You're here with me while you're seeing her You're holding me while you lie You look me in the face and tell me There's nobody else in your life I'm right here, right here And you still make me feel insane You get to have us both And I get all the shame You're here with me while you're seeing her God, I wish that made me leave But you're lying next to me right now And I'm still hoping you choose me [Outro — nearly spoken, instruments cut away] Your phone lights up. You turn it over. I don't ask who it is. You don't have to lie. You reach for my hand. I let you take it. And I hate you a little For knowing I still will.
