Almost Human

[Intro] Small white comfort Pressed against my tongue They say it helps me breathe But I feel less than one Hands guide every motion Tell me how to cope I nod along politely But I’m choking on the hope [Verse 1] Measured days, counted hours Soft commands, gentle force They tell me I’m improving I just feel off course Smiles taught like lessons Feelings trimmed and neat I’m grateful for the quiet But my pulse skips beats [Pre-Chorus] They say I’m safe They say I’m fine But this life doesn’t feel like mine [Chorus] I don’t belong here I don’t fit the frame Fed calm by a careful hand Still feeling strange I walk these streets I play the role But every step feels wrong Like I’m losing hold [Verse 2] Crowds move smooth and certain I lag a step behind They wear ease like second skin I wear doubt in mine Thoughts crawl late at night Heavy, sharp, unkind They say don’t listen to them But they sound like mine [Pre-Chorus] They promise peace They promise rest But I feel worse before my best [Chorus] I don’t belong here I know the signs Smiles rehearsed, a steady face But I’m not aligned They say be thankful They say be whole I’m standing still While the world rolls [Bridge] But sometimes I remember Laughing without fear Sun on my face The weight disappears I picture warm days No need to pretend Just me, just breathing No start, no end For a moment I feel okay Like I’m where I’m meant to stay [Breakdown] Cut me smaller Make me easy Tell me who I’m meant to be Hold me steady Hold me still Tell me this is living I tried your way I tried to cope I still feel lost I still feel low [Final Chorus] I don’t belong here But I’m awake I see the cost of fitting molds I couldn’t take I’ll carry doubt I’ll carry pain But I’d rather feel too much Than feel restrained [Outro] One day I’ll stand Without the guide Still unsure But still alive