That’s Why You Quit, Right?

[Verse 1] ねぇ、今日の授業は何？教えてよ だってあなたの手が触れた瞬間に 声が詰まって、喉が熱くなるの 「大丈夫？」なんて聞かれてもさ もう何が正常か分からないよ ――でも、あなたが全部知ってるんでしょ？ ほらまた、優しい手で触れて 安心させてあげるって顔で 違う、そうじゃなくて 優しさとか邪魔なだけ もっと強引に、もっと痛いくらいに 優しいだけじゃワタシは壊れないよ？ Hey, what's today's lesson? Go on, tell me. Because every time your fingers brush my skin, My voice locks up, my throat burns hot, You ask, "Are you okay?" But I don't even remember what "okay" feels like— But you're the teacher, aren't you? You know best. Here we go again, your soft, gentle touch, Pretending your kindness is enough. Wrong, wrong, wrong, you're not getting it— Sweetness just gets in the way. Come on, be rougher, make it hurt properly— Gentle words can't break me anymore. [Pre-Chorus 1] 噛みついたら怒るかな？ 抵抗なんて無意味なの知ってるよ？ 痛いかどうか聞く前に 初めからそういう顔しないでよ Would you get mad if I bit you? We both know struggling is useless, anyway. Instead of asking if it hurts, Don't pretend to care from the start. [Chorus 1] 触れるほど歪んでいく、この体も心も全部 「嫌だ」って叫びながら、期待してる自分がいる だってあなたが正義で、ワタシが悪者なら それでいい、それでいい 好きなように塗り替えて 何度言わせるの？「やめて」は「もっとして」の合図だって いいよ、ほら好きでしょ？ 最低で卑怯なワタシにしてよ 壊して、壊して、徹底的に汚して せめて綺麗に壊してくれない？ Every time you touch me, every time I shatter, My body's twisted into the shape you want. I scream "No," but secretly hope you never stop— If you're always right, and I'm always wrong, That's fine, that's fine, that's fine— Rewrite me however you please. How many times must I say it? "Stop" is just another way to beg for more, isn't it? Fine, fine—I'll become your twisted little plaything. Break me down, tear me up, dirty every piece of me— But if you're going to ruin me, At least do it right? [Verse 2] ねぇ、あなたってさ いつも笑顔で、みんなに愛されて 誰にでも同じ優しさを振りまいてる でも本当は求めてるんでしょ？ そういう顔してるからバレバレだよ 違うならどうして、今さら止まれないの？ ほら、あなたが触れるたび 息が止まって、涙が滲んでく 怖いよ、本当は怖いけど 「あなたのせい」って言ったら 全部許せる気がするから―― Hey, you know… You're always smiling, always adored by everyone, Sharing the same empty kindness wherever you go. But deep down, this is what you really wanted, isn't it? Your expression gives it all away. If I'm wrong, tell me—why can't you stop now? See? Every touch makes me gasp, Steals my breath, brings tears to my eyes. I'm scared—I really am—but… If I blame everything on you, Maybe it's easier to let myself go— [Pre-Chorus 2] 呼吸が乱れるのも、あなたのせい 足が震えるのも、あなたのせい 壊れてしまったのも、あなたのせい 最後まで責任、ちゃんと取ってね？ The reason I'm breathless—that's your fault. My trembling legs—that's your fault. This broken mess I've become—that’s your fault too. You did this, so finish what you started. [Chorus 2] 触れるほど壊れていく、この体も心も全部 「もうやめて」って嘘吐いて、待ち焦がれてる瞬間を あなたが正しいなら、ワタシが間違ってても それでいい、それでいい このまま全て奪ってよ もっと荒々しく、もっと無慈悲に、乱暴な言葉で罵って 優しさなんてうんざりだから どうせ壊すなら綺麗にしてよ？ Every touch warps me further, reshaping my body and mind. I cry "stop," but my body's begging for more, If you're the good one, and I'm in the wrong, Then fine, fine, fine— Just take it all away from me. Be rougher, more ruthless, whisper something vile as you break me— I've had enough kindness, enough fake sympathy, If you're going to ruin me, At least do it right? [Bridge] 「ねぇ、知ってる？」 「あなたみたいな優しいフリした男ほど 心の底では、一番歪んだこと考えてるんだよ？」 「だってもう…止めないでしょ？」 「いいよ、あなたの欲望、全部ワタシで発散して？」 "Hey… did you know?" "Guys like you, who pretend they're sweet—" "They have the darkest, dirtiest thoughts deep inside, right?" "Look at you now… You aren't stopping anymore." "Come on, let it all out… use me." - 「あのさ、知ってた？」 「完全に壊されちゃったら、もう愛されるしかないんだよ」 「…これが、欲しかったんでしょ？」 "Hey, did you know…" "Once I'm fully broken, the only thing left to do is love me." "…Isn't this exactly what you wanted?" [Final Chorus] 触れるほど歪んでいく、この体も心も全部 あなたが壊したんだから、最後まで逃げないでよ だってあなたが正義で、ワタシが悪者なら それでいい、それでいい 好きなように仕上げてよ 何度言わせるの？「やめて」は「もっとして」の合図だって 分かった、分かった、あなたの好きなワタシになるよ 壊して、壊して、何もかも汚して どうせ壊すなら、ちゃんとしてよ――？ Every time you touch me, every time I shatter, My body's twisted into the shape you want. You broke me—now you can't just walk away. If you're always right, and I'm always wrong, That's fine, that's fine, that's fine— Mold me into your perfect doll. How many times must I say it? "Stop" means "Please don't ever stop," doesn't it? Alright, alright, I'll become exactly what you desire. Break me down, tear me up, ruin every bit of me— But please, if you're going to ruin me, At least do it right…?