You’ll Never Know Why

You’ll Never Know Why You think it started with the last fight The one outside your friend’s house in the rain You tell the story like a witness Like you watched it happen from a train You point to dates and conversations You underline the night I walked away As if a heart gives its notice In a single day You want a reason you can carry Something clean enough to blame But you’ll never know why I went quiet when you spoke Why I smiled in the pictures When I already felt broke You’ll never know why I memorized the exit signs Months before I left you I was leaving in my mind You can turn it over forever Looking for another clue But you’ll never know why And that’s the hardest truth You think it was the girl at midnight The one whose name lit up your screen But heartbreak isn’t a lightning strike It’s a thousand things unseen It’s every time I made myself smaller To fit the version that you liked Every little missing piece Disappearing out of sight You want the moment I stopped loving you I wish there’d been one too But you’ll never know why I went quiet when you spoke Why I smiled in the pictures When I already felt broke You’ll never know why I memorized the exit signs Months before I left you I was leaving in my mind You can turn it over forever Looking for another clue But you’ll never know why And that’s the hardest truth Some wounds don’t leave a fingerprint Some endings don’t make a sound Sometimes the house is falling down Long before the walls hit the ground And if I told you everything Word for word, line by line You’d still be searching for the answer Between the lines You’ll never know why The door closed so easily Why the girl who swore forever Became a memory You’ll never know why And after all this time That’s the only thing that’s mine You can keep the records Keep the evidence you knew But you’ll never know why No, you’ll never know why I loved you enough to leave Before I hated you