[intro] (Yeah..) (mm…) (Yeah) this thought don’t leave [Chorus] If only I tried harder (tried harder) That sentence haunt me at night (yeah) I did enough to survive (mm) But not enough to get it right (nah) I keep asking myself “what if?” (uhh) Like effort was the missing part (missing part) If only I tried harder (yeah) Maybe things wouldn’t hurt this sharp (hurt this sharp) [Long verse] I don’t beat myself up for not knowing (yeah) I beat myself up for knowing and still pausing (mm) For feeling the urgency in my chest (nah) Then choosing comfort over responding (uhh) I showed up halfway and called it my best (best) Like effort don’t come in levels (yeah) I did just enough to say I tried (mm) But not enough to move the needle (nah) I told myself “I’m overwhelmed” (uhh) When really I was avoiding pressure (pressure) I waited for motivation (yeah) Instead of respecting discipline (mm) I look back and see moments I could’ve leaned in (nah) Sent the text, had the talk, stayed present (uhh) But I delayed until the moment passed (passed) Then acted surprised when it left (yeah) I don’t regret the nights I was tired (mm) I regret the nights I quit early (nah) When one more push might’ve changed things (uhh) But I convinced myself it wouldn’t matter (wouldn’t matter) I confuse self-care with self-comfort (yeah) Rest with avoidance (mm) And now I sit with the echo (nah) Of chances I didn’t take serious (uhh) I wasn’t lazy (lazy) I was scared of failing visibly (yeah) So I failed quietly (mm) And that feel worse somehow (nah) I don’t blame life (uhh) I don’t blame timing (timing) I blame the gap between knowing (yeah) And actually trying (mm) ‘Cause effort don’t guarantee shit (nah) But not trying guarantee regret (uhh) And that’s the part I gotta live with (live with) Every time I reflect (yeah) [Chorus] If only I tried harder (tried harder) That sentence haunt me at night (yeah) I did enough to survive (mm) But not enough to get it right (nah) I keep asking myself “what if?” (uhh) Like effort was the missing part (missing part) If only I tried harder (yeah) Maybe things wouldn’t hurt this sharp (hurt this sharp) [Bridge] Maybe “harder” wasn’t the answer (mmm) Maybe “consistently” was (yeah) Maybe trying once more (mm) Would’ve changed everything (nah) [Final Chorus] If only I tried harder (tried harder) I wouldn’t be asking this now (yeah) But beating myself up won’t rewind (mm) What I didn’t do back then (nah) All I got is this lesson (uhh) And whatever I choose next (next) If only I tried harder (yeah) I gotta make sure I don’t say that again (don’t say it again) [Outro] (mm…) (yeah…) (uhh…) next time I will
