Verse 1 It's been almost four years since they told me you were gone. Your body couldn't carry you anymore. Your organs gave up, and somehow the world kept moving on. I remember standing there, not knowing what to feel. Everyone was crying. Everyone was grieving. And I just stood there, wondering why I couldn't do the same. Verse 2 I still remember your voice. I could close my eyes and almost hear you calling my name. I remember sitting in the kitchen, watching you make me sandwiches like it was the most important thing in the world. You never needed much to make me feel loved. A piece of bread. Something to drink. A few words. Sometimes you would secretly slip some money into my hand, and I'd smile like I'd just been given everything. Pre-Chorus And I still remember the first time you let me drink Coke. You watched me take that first sip with that look on your face. Such a stupid little memory. But it's one of the things I would give anything to have back. Chorus You were never just my grandfather. You were the closest thing I ever had to a father. You were safety. You were home. You were the voice that made the world feel smaller when everything was too big. And I miss you more than these four years could ever explain. I just wish I had known that last time would be the last time. Verse 3 People think four years should be enough. Enough time to accept it. Enough time to move on. Enough time to stop hurting. But they don't know I never really stopped waiting for you. Sometimes I still hear your voice in the back of my mind. Sometimes I turn around because for one second I forget. Then I remember. And the silence comes back. Bridge I never got to say goodbye. Not the goodbye you see in movies. The real one. The one where you sit beside someone and tell them everything you were too afraid to say. I swallowed my grief and carried on. I went to school. I laughed. I lived. While somewhere inside me a little girl was still waiting for her grandfather to come back through the door. Chorus You were never just my grandfather. You were the man who made me feel protected. The man who fed me when I was hungry. The man who put money in my hand without making a big deal about it. The man who gave me my first taste of something sweet and made an ordinary afternoon feel like a memory worth keeping. And I hate that all I have now are memories. Verse 4 I wish I could sit beside you just one more time. I wouldn't ask for anything. I wouldn't need the money. I wouldn't need the sandwiches. I wouldn't even need the Coke. I'd just listen to your voice. I'd memorize every word. Every pause. Every little sound. Because I didn't know how precious an ordinary moment was until there were no more of them. Chorus It's been almost four years, and I'm still your little girl somewhere inside. Still looking for you in familiar voices. Still missing you in ordinary moments. Still carrying all this grief I never learned how to release. They say time changes everything. But time didn't take you away. It only taught me how to live around the hole you left behind. You were my grandfather. But you were also my father in every way that mattered. And God, I miss you. I miss you more than I ever knew a person could miss someone. Outro Tonight I finally let myself remember. Your voice. Your hands. The kitchen. The sandwiches. That first sip of Coke. The money you slipped into my hand. All those little things I thought I'd forgotten. I didn't forget. I just never let myself feel them. So tonight, after almost four years, I finally cry for you. Not because I am weak. But because I loved you. And I still do. I think some part of me always will.
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