[INTRO] Yeah, I sat with the silence for a long time./ Just trying to make sense of the math, you know?/ How "I love you" promised a thousand times somehow equals goodbye./ I’m done trying to solve the puzzle./ Let’s just call it what it is./ [VERSE 1] It’s never been bout what you did, It’s always been bout what you didn’t do,/ Excuses Everytime you broke you word, so id pity you,/ Running from reality, hiding behind the "I love yous",/ Photoshop my image to be the one you could accuse,/ [VERSE 2] But where were you when I broke, the day my friend took his life?/ Where were you when the pillow soaked my tears up late at night?/ Where were you when I waited for the calls that you planned?/ Where were you anytime it mattered? Where were you then?/ [VERSE 3] I waited patiently in hopes your actions match your words,/ But the more I sat in the silence, the less from you I heard,/ Days would go by without so much as a whisper,/ You are no longer the girl I met, but damnit I do miss her,/ [VERSE 4] She was the one to say good morning every day,/ Not fall asleep untill goodnight, she always knew just what to say/ Never made me think she wasn't mine, let me know I was on her mind,/ But that girl seems to be gone, lost to the sands of time./ [BRIDGE 1] And the silence started screaming, louder than the truth,/ Wasting all my energy on a different version of you,/ I was holding onto hope while you were letting go of me,/ Blind to the person that you’ve grown to be./ [HOOK] You were painting me a heaven while you put me through a hell,/ Selling me a story that you couldn't even tell,/ Just a ghost of the girl that I used to know before,/ Now you’re just a stranger standing outside of my door./ [VERSE 5] Your not the same as you were, your not the love I remember,/ Something feels so much colder than it did last December,/ You have ice in your veins, and I think you froze your heart,/ But the crazy part is your not the one who fell apart,/ [VERSE 6] It was me that shattered when you walked the other way,/ It was my heart that broke when you chose not to stay,/ You just moved on, right into another mans arms,/ Leaving me to question, were you even mine all along?/ [VERSE 7] Looking back I see it clear, this was never gone be real,/ This was always just a drug for you, to numb away your fears/ Validation and the care, to cover longing and despair,/ Take two "I Love Yous" in the morning, hiding from the tears,/ [VERSE 8] Pop another before bed, while you reread what was said,/ Twisting texts into puzzles that you kept inside your head,/ Fabricate a labyrinth of lies, with no path to the end,/ All the breadcrumbs that you fed me, just led to the start again./ [BRIDGE 2] Prescription for the ego, a dosage for the pride,/ Keeping me at arm's length just to keep me on your side,/ But the side effects are heavy and the medicine is fake,/ I’m done drinking from the poison in the name of what we made./ [HOOK] You were painting me a heaven while you put me through a hell,/ Selling me a story that you couldn't even tell,/ Just a ghost of the girl that I used to know before,/ Now you’re just a stranger standing outside of my door./ [VERSE 9] I was building up a temple while you dug a shallow grave,/ Giving everything I had to be the soul you wouldn't save,/ You talk about "forever" like a script you just rehearse,/ A sedative for your ego, to keep away the curse./ [VERSE 10] Now I’m staring at the pictures, trying to find where I went wrong,/ But your image is a stranger who’s been changing all a long,/ You projected all your shadows till I couldn't see the light,/ Then blamed me for the darkness when I lost you in the night./ [VERSE 11] I used to think the distance was the hardest part to bear,/ But it’s the coldness in your silence when I know that you’re still there,/ A thousand miles of ocean never felt as far as this,/ The static on the telephone, the poison in the kiss./ [VERSE 12] You traded my loyalty for a medicated high,/ Overdosing on my energy, and bleeding me dry,/ I see you in the stories, in the pictures that you post,/ Playing house with someone new while I’m haunted by your ghost./ [VERSE 13] Does he know he’s just a bandage for the wounds you don't let heal?/ Does he know that nothing bout "us" will ever truly be real?/ Or are you spinning him the same web, the one you spun for me,/ Trapping him inside the version of the girl you used to be?/ [VERSE 14] So keep those medicated memories of the me I know you hate,/ The one you used to calculate the way you sealed our fate,/ I’m picking up the pieces that you scattered on the floor,/ Because the man who used to love you doesn’t live here anymore./ [OUTRO] The pharmacy is closed today, the shelves are running dry,/ I’m out of all the empathy you used to get your high,/ You drained the last of every drop, then run back to me for more,/ But I’ve got no more product left for strangers outside my door./ Supply... meets... demand./ And your drowning in debt./
